The mosque is dark inside, lit by a sliver of light from the doorway, relatively cool compared to the oppressive heat outside. The interior is blackened, crumbling in spots. A lance of sunlight shines down on a corner, illuminating the thin, stained, blue-and-white striped mattress where I do my work. There are thick white candles arrayed along the wall and to either side, illumination for nighttime clients. There is a box of condoms, a jug of water, and nothing else. Hunter stops, staring down at the mattress. His face is shadowed, so I cannot see his expression, but I can feel the displeasure radiating from him.
He glances at me, then away, heaving a deep sigh. “Where?” he asks.
I point at a thin line of darker shadows marking the doorway to the other room. I never go there, for I have no reason to, but I know it is there. My parents did not often go to the mosque, except for holy days. The room where Hunter will hide is pitch black, smelling still of charred wood, smoke, and something else, darker, sickly sweet and hauntingly familiar that I cannot place.
Hunter stops in the entrance and sniffs. “Death,” he says. “Death was here. I smell it.”
Now I know what that scent is. I smelled it when Aunt Maida died. I have smelled it when I come across dead bodies after a bomb has gone off. It is the smell of death, as Hunter said. I am supposed to be supporting him, but somehow, he is comforting me. I see those who have died flashing before me like visible ghosts.
Hassan, staring at me from the middle of the road as he bleeds, bullets passing between us. Mama. Papa. Aunt Maida. Uncle Ahmed. So many others, nameless, faceless. All dead.
Hunter balances with one hand on the wall, curls his arm around my waist, and pulls me into his chest. He does not say anything. He does not need to. He, too, has seen death. Frequently enough to know it when he smells it.
Why does being held by this man give me such comfort? It should not. He should not. I should be afraid of him, run away from him. I should have left him to die. But here I am, hiding him. Holding him. Being held. Comforted. Protected.
I pull myself from his arms, mentally cursing myself for how empty I feel when I am not near him.
“You must sit,” I say. “No matter what you might hear, do not make yourself known.”
There is a long pause while he translates my words for himself. “If you are hurt, I will come,” he says. I hear his back sliding down against the wall, and then his hand reaches out to curl around my ankle. “Be safe. Please.”
I want to do nothing so much as crouch beside him and take his stubble-roughened face in my hands and kiss him until neither of us can breathe. I do not. I nod, then realize he cannot see the gesture.
“I will be safe,” I say, then leave before my traitorous desires get the best of me.
Masjid will be here soon.
* * *
Masjid is tall and thin and dark. He reminds me of a knife. His posture is rigid, his face narrow, his prominent, hooked nose and pointed chin lending to the sharpness of his features. He has pockmarks in his skin around his forehead and on his right cheek. His eyes are small and nearly black, glittering with intelligence and malice. He does not wear a keffiyeh, normally. His beard is thick and shot through with gray. When he comes to me, he is reserved and business-like, not rough or violent, but not kind, either. I think for Masjid, sex is merely a tactic to help him focus, so he does not become distracted when working.
He is ghost-like, appearing seemingly at will, out of thin air. I am standing outside the mosque, waiting for him. I glance down the street in one direction, and when I look back the other way, he is there, a few feet away, hands in the pockets of his loose khaki pants.
“What is it, Sabah? I am busy.” His voice is quiet and laced with latent threat.
One does not idly waste Masjid’s time. I am not truly afraid of much, but I am terrified of Masjid. He has never shown anything but professional detachment, yet still, I somehow intrinsically understand that he could and would kill me without so much as blinking, if I were to anger him.
“I apologize, Masjid, but I have a problem, and I am hoping you will help me.”
“I am not a djinn, Sabah, that you can summon me to solve your problems.” His eyes narrow and his hand fidgets in his pocket.
I swallow my nerves and try not to let my fear show. “I know. I would not have called you if I had any other choice. I know you are busy.”
He examines me with his hard, dark eyes. “Very well. I will see what I can do to help you. But this is business, yes? I will expect…payment.”
“Of course.” I allow myself three deep breaths to calm my hammering heart, and then move toward my home, gesturing for Masjid to follow.
I show him Ahmed’s corpse, cooling and stiffening in the shower, still oozing thick, dark blood. Masjid examines the body with the ease of one used to such gruesome sights. He takes a pen from his pocket and probes the knife wounds at his throat, stomach, and chest.
He stands up and stares down at me. “You did not kill this man. Whoever did this knew his business.” I say nothing, do nothing. I only wait. “Ahmed was a pig. No one will mourn his passing, although his absence will be noted.”
“Yes,” I say. “I need him gone. Please. I cannot afford the questions.”
Masjid glances back at the body, then wipes the end of his pen on his shirt before pocketing it once again. “My gut tells me you are involved in something I do not want anything to do with. But I will help you.” He pauses, eyeing me thoughtfully. “I will help you because you are a good girl. You were not meant to be a whore, Sabah. But you are, and a good one.”
“Thank you, Masjid.”
“I will expect—”
“I know,” I interrupt. “I know what your payment will be.”
He nods. “Good. I had better take care of this now. If your friend…Abdul—” the inflection in his voice tells me he knows exactly who Abdul really is, “—gets wind of this, it will not go well for you.” He waves toward the door. “Go shopping or something. Come back in an hour.”
When I come back, Masjid has removed the body and cleaned away any traces of blood. Now comes the payment. Masjid follows me to the mosque, pausing in the street to dump water from a bottle onto his hands, scrubbing them together. He produces a small bottle of clear, alcohol-smelling liquid, which he wipes on his hands, then gestures into the mosque.
He looks around carefully, even though he has been here a hundred times before. Can he know Hunter is mere feet away? I force emptiness onto my face, and then a seductive smile. I move toward Masjid, reaching for his belt. I have to distract him.