“Why we’re doing what?”
“Having a baby,” she said, glancing tearfully over at the pink-swathed toddler. “We’re just—all we ever talk about is what we’re going to do with it when we’re not there. Who’s going to raise it?”
“We are.”
“From six to eight P.M.?”
Neal sat back in his chair. “I thought you wanted this.”
“Maybe I was wrong. Maybe I shouldn’t get what I want.” Maybe I don’t deserve it.
Neal didn’t tell her it would all be fine. He seemed too shocked to speak. Or maybe too angry. He just watched Georgie cry—his brow low, his jaw forward—and refused to finish his chana masala.
The next morning he told her he was quitting his job.
“You can’t quit your job,” Georgie said. She was still lying in bed. Neal had brought her a mug of hot black tea and a plate of scrambled eggs.
“Why not?” he said. “I hate it.”
He did hate it. He’d been there three years, the pay was terrible, and his boss was an unrepentant egomaniac who liked to brag about “curing cancer.”
“Yeah,” she said, “but . . . do you even want to stay home?”
Neal shrugged. “You’re going to be miserable if we put this baby in day care.”
“I’ll get over it,” Georgie said, knowing that she would and feeling guilty about that, too.
“You don’t want me to stay home?”
“I haven’t thought about it, have you?”
“There isn’t anything to think about,” he said. “I can do this. You can’t. We don’t need my paycheck.”
“But . . .” Georgie felt like she should argue, but she didn’t know where to start. And, actually, she really, really liked this idea. She already felt better about the baby, knowing that it would be with Neal, that they wouldn’t be turning it (they didn’t know the gender yet, but they’d settled on “Alice” or “Eli”) over to a stranger nine hours a day.
“You’re sure?” she asked, moving to get out of bed. She was huge—Georgie got huge with both pregnancies—and she was having spasms in her lower back every time she sat up. Neal bent in front of her so she could put her arms around his neck, then pulled her upright with his hands on her hips. “It’s a big sacrifice,” she said.
“Taking care of my own child isn’t a sacrifice. It’s what parents do.”
“Yeah, but are you sure? Don’t you want to think about this?”
Neal was looking at Georgie’s face, not smiling—just meeting her eyes without flinching, so she’d know he was serious. “I’m positive.”
“Okay,” she said, and kissed him, already feeling so relieved. And feeling some sort of evolutionary satisfaction. Like she’d made the right decision picking this man; he was going to find all the best sticks for their nest and chase off all the predators.
They stood together, curled over the mass of baby between them, and Georgie felt like everything was going to be fine.
That’s how Neal had become a stay-at-home dad.
That’s how Neal had thrown away his own career before he’d even figured out what he wanted from it.
What would happen now? If they stayed together? (God, was she really asking that question?)
Noomi would start school next year. Would Neal go back to work then? What would he want to do—what would he want to be?
A railroad detective?
CHAPTER 25
Neal didn’t call her back.
Georgie lay on her bed and watched the phone. She was trying to figure out whether she could see the magic if she looked hard enough. Whether the phone shimmered or glittered or made some sort of spooky Freaky Friday noise when it was doing its thing.
One of the pugs, the boy, wandered into the room. He stood next to the bed barking until Georgie hauled him up with her.
“I don’t like you,” she said. “I don’t even know your name. In my head, I call you ‘the Sweaty One’ and the other one ‘the One Who Looks Like It Bit a Brick.’”
She did know their names. They were Porky and Petunia
Porky nuzzled his flat face into Georgie’s stomach and whimpered. She rubbed her knuckles into the skin at the back of his neck.
The door was open, and Heather leaned in.
“I’m still fine,” Georgie said. Heather had been checking on her ever since they got back from the mall and Georgie had run to her room to brood over the phone.
“I brought you some Pringles,” Heather said.
“I don’t want any Pringles.”
Heather walked over and sat on the bed. “Well, now you’re just lying.” She shook a stack of chips out onto the bedspread, and Georgie and Porky started eating them. When the can was empty, Heather wiped her fingers on Georgie’s borrowed velour pants and lay down on the bed next to the dog. “Are you okay?”
Georgie didn’t answer. She started crying instead.
Porky climbed into her lap.
“He hates it when people cry,” Heather said.
“Well, I hate him, so he’s making it worse.”
“You don’t hate him.”
“I do,” Georgie said. “His face is always wet, and the best thing he smells like is bacon bits.”
“Why don’t you just call Neal?”
“He probably isn’t home. Besides, I don’t want to talk to him if he doesn’t want to talk to me.”
“Maybe you’ll change his mind.”
Georgie tried to smooth out the wrinkles over Porky’s eyes.
“If you and Neal split up,” Heather asked, “will you move back in here?”
“Why? Am I in your way?”
“No. I kind of like having you here. It’s like having a sister.” Heather elbowed Georgie. “Hey. You’re supposed to say, ‘We’re not splitting up—Neal’s just visiting his mom.’”
Georgie shrugged.
After another minute or so, Heather elbowed her again. “I’m hungry,” she said.
“Where’s Mom?”
“At her work Christmas party.”
“We could make some more cheesy apples,” Georgie said.
“I ate all the cheese slices.” Heather turned on her side and rested her head in her hand. “I guess we could order a pizza. . . .”
Georgie forced a smile she knew wouldn’t happen on its own. “That sounds perfect.”