"Don't worry about that."
"How can I not?" I ask. "I'm not sure about anything anymore… anything except for you, anyway. You're the only thing in my life that I'm sure about. I know I want you… need you. I know I love you. Nothing else really makes any sense anymore."
"Don't say that unless—"
"Unless I mean it," I mumble, cutting him off. "Believe me, I mean it."
"Do you want to know what future I see? What I see for you?"
I meet his eyes. "What?"
"I see you having everything you've ever wanted," he says. "Everything you've ever dreamed of. Clothes, shoes, houses, cars… boats."
I laugh. "Boats?"
He shrugs. "You might want a boat, you know, take one down the canal in Venice when you visit Italy someday."
"Okay, I'll give you that one," I say. "I don't really need all of that, though."
"But you can still have it," he says. "Anything you want out of life. You can finish school and build a life however you want it to be. A family, children… whatever you want. I see it for you."
I smile. "It sounds wonderful."
"It can be," he says quietly. "God willing, it will be."
"Does this life include you?"
"Do you want it to?"
"Of course. I'd give all that other stuff up if it meant I could just keep you."
He stares at me in silence for a moment, not responding to what I've said, before slowly reaching into his coat. He pulls out a small velvet box, and every muscle inside of me seizes up at the sight of it. My heart stalls a beat before kick starting again, like its been shocked into action, frantically pounding against my rib cage.
Oh shit.
Oh shit.
Oh shit.
He wordlessly flips the box open, the last tiny bit of sunlight hitting the oval-shaped diamond dead center of the ring. I gape at it as it sparkles in the light. I don't know anything about jewelry, couldn't guess the carat to save my life, but I know enough to tell it's extravagant.
He says nothing.
I say nothing.
He glances down at the box in his hand, pulling the ring from it after a moment, holding it up in front of him.
There's no way he's doing what I think he's doing.
There's just no way.
His eyes lift to meet mine again, and I see the truth there, lurking in the darkness. "You really mean it?"
I slowly nod. "I wouldn't say it if I didn't."
This has to be a dream. It's a dream. I'm asleep, or in a coma. Maybe he choked me last night until I fell unconscious, or maybe I'm dead, or maybe he's just fucking with me. Maybe I'm mistaken.
Maybe someone's playing a cruel joke.
Something, anything… but there's just no way this is real. There's no way this means what I think it means, that he means what I think he means. There's no way he's about to say—
"Marry me."
Those two words suck the oxygen from the courtyard. My chest burns, my eyes blurring. I inhale sharply. I can't fucking breathe.
Blinking rapidly, my gaze bounces between him and the ring. My brain is screaming in protest, shouting out everything that is wrong about this entire thing. The list is a mile long. I've known him only months. There's so much about him that's a mystery to me. I'm young, and maybe I'm naïve, and he's dark, and maybe he's a bit dangerous. I only vaguely know his history, and my mother doesn't even know he exists.
So many things wrong, so why do those words feel so right?
Marry me.
He didn't ask.
It's not a question.
He knows.
He fucking knows me.
My voice betrays me when I try to speak. My lips part, but nothing comes out besides a shaky exhale. Naz stares at me, a smile slowly spreading across his face, flashing those deep dimples. He holds the ring out, cocking an eyebrow.
I extend my hand across the table, trembling as he slips it on my finger.
I let out a squeak before stammering incoherently, but my words are cut off when he stands and leans across the table, silencing me with a kiss. I kiss him back as he lets go of my hands, and I reach up, wrapping my arms around his neck. It's a fiery kiss, full of all of Naz's passion. It vibrates through my body, throttling my soul, his lips, and skin, and words forever altering me.
How could I ever deny something so all consuming? How could I say no to someone who means so much to me? It's crazy, and stupid, and utterly overwhelming, but how will I ever fly if I'm too terrified to take the first leap?
"I will," I whisper against his mouth. "I'll marry you."
The air is electric.
I can feel it buzzing along my skin, the hair on my arms sticking straight up as the current flows through my body. Every centimeter of me tingles.
The arena is loud… so loud I can hardly hear myself think. Thousands upon thousands of people cram the vast room, packed together in seats, screaming and stomping. The noise seems to pound through my skull, fueling the electricity. It's pandemonium.
Naz leads me straight to the front row, surrounding a large boxing ring. As soon as we get there, I spot the two empty seats in the middle, most of the row filled with familiar faces. Naz ushers me to one, and I nervously sit down beside the girl I'd met last night—Brandy. She's leaning against Raymond, his arm draped around her, as he eyes us curiously, gaze shifting from me to Naz. "Vitale."
"Ray."
Raymond's eyes drift back to me once more, meeting mine, before scanning me. His gaze settles straight on the ring on my finger, like he knew to look for it. A laugh bursts from him as he shakes his head. "You did it."
"Yes," Naz says. "Just a bit ago."
"Did what?" Brandy asks. "What happened?"
Raymond motions toward my hand, and I slip it onto the seat beside me, out of view, but I'm not fast enough. Brandy's eyes widen as she snatches ahold of my hand, holding it up. "No fucking way! You got engaged?"
I can feel the heat rushing to my face. The entire row seems to silence as a dozen sets of eyes strain to look our way.
"We did," Naz says.
The silence is broken by quiet murmurs, a few congratulations, but even more shock. Brandy clutches my hand tightly, admiring the ring in the light, as male laughter cuts through the air. Naz tenses at the sound as it echoes from the guy who rubbed him the wrong way last night.
"Never thought I'd see the day," the guy says. "Vitale tying the knot again."
My expression falls at those words.
Vitale tying the knot again.
Again.
The others fall silent once more, looking away. I turn to Naz, confused, and see he's staring straight ahead at the ring, not a hint of emotion on his face. He's a stone cold statue. It's like he hadn't heard… he's here, but he's gone.