"I had to tell her about Miss Moore," Pippa whispers low in my ear. "It was the only way to keep us together for one last night."
At the front of the church is a stained-glass window of an angel. There's a large chip of glass gone from the angel's eye like a gaping wound. I stare at the hole and say nothing, mouthing along to my Bible verse, listening to words swirl around me.
" and the Lord delivered them into his hands "
"It's not as if she was entirely blameless, you know."
" And Jephthah came ... unto his house, and behold, his daughter came out to meet him and she was his only child "
"Please, Gemma. I have to see him again. Do you know what it is to lose someone without saying goodbye?"
If I stare hard, the hole grows and the angel disappears. But if I blink, I see the angel, not the hole, and I have to start all over again.
" when he saw her , he rent his clothes and said, Alas, my daughter! thou hast brought me very low .. .for I have opened my mouth unto the Lord, and I cannot go back "
Pippa starts to plead with me again, but Mrs. Nightwing turns around to inspect us from her pew. Pippa buries her face in her Bible and reads along with renewed fervor.
" And she said unto her father, Let this thing be done for me: let me alone two months, that I may go up and down upon the mountains, and bewail my virginity "
Some of the younger girls snicker at this. It's followed by a loud chorus of shushing from the teachersall of them except Miss Moore, who isn't here. She's back at the school, packing to leave.
" And he sent her away and she went with her companions upon the mountains ,"
Reverend Waite closes his Bible. "Thus sayeth the Lord. Let us pray."
There is a wave of shuffling and thumping as we sit and pass our Bibles down, girl to girl, till they're stacked neatly on the ends of the pews. I pass mine to Pippa, who holds it tight.
"Just one last night. Before I'm gone forever. That's all I'm asking." I let go, and the Bible crashes into her lap. Freed, I go back to staring at the angel. I stare so long and hard that the angel seems to move. It's the dark coming in, making everything hazy. But for a moment, I could swear I see the angel's wings fluttering, the hands tightening on the sword, the sword cleaving through the lamb quick as a scythe. I look away, and it's gone. A trick of the light.