He pulled out into the boulevard, continuing west toward Manhattan, one eye out for tails. The van bounced over some roadwork and he listened closely but heard nothing shift in back. Yet something was weighing down the suspension.
He got thirsty and pulled over again outside a corner market, picking up two twenty-four-ounce cans of Tecate. He jammed one of the red-and-gold cans into the cup holder and pulled out again, the city buildings coming up across the river now, the sun falling behind them. Night was coming. He thought about his brother at home, Crispin, that shitbag addict, showing up just as Gus was trying his best to be good to his mother. Sweating out chemicals on the living room sofa, and all Gus wanted to do was slide a rusty blade between his ribs. Bringing his disease into their crib. His older brother was a ghoul, a straight-up zombie, but she wouldn't put him out. She let him lay around and pretended he wasn't shooting smack in her bathroom, biding time until he would vanish again, along with some of her things.
Gus needed to put some of this dinero sucio aside for his madre. Give it to her after Crispin was gone. Stick some more in his hat and leave it there for her. Make her happy. Do something right.
Gus pulled out his phone before the tunnel. "Felix, man. Come get me."
"Where you at, bro?"
"I'll be down Battery Park."
"Battery Park? All the way down there, Gusto?"
"So roll over to Ninth and drop straight down, bitch. We're going out. Have ourselves a party, man. That money I owe you-I made me some flash today. Bring me out a jacket or something to wear, clean shoes. Get me into a club."
"Fuckin'-anything else?"
"Just pull your fingers out of your sister's concha and come get me-comprende?"
He came out of the tunnel into Manhattan and drove across town before turning south. He maneuvered onto Church Street, south of Canal, and started checking street signs. The address was a loft building fronted with scaffolding, its windows plastered with building permits, but without any construction trucks around. The street was quiet, residential. The garage worked as advertised, the access code raising a steel door under which the van just fit, rolling down a ramp beneath the building.
Gus parked and sat still a moment, listening. The garage was dingy and underlit, looking to him like a good trap, the kicked-up dust swirling in the fading light through the open doorway. His impulse was to beat a hasty retreat, but he needed to be sure he was out clean. He waited as the garage door rolled shut.
Gus folded the pages and envelope from the glove compartment and stuffed them inside his pockets, draining the last of the first beer and crushing the can to an aluminum pick, then stepping out of the van. After a moment's deliberation, he went back in with his hand rag and wiped down the steering wheel, the radio knobs, the glove compartment, the door handles inside and out, and anything else he thought he might have touched.
He looked around the garage, the only light now coming in between the blades of an exhaust fan, dust drifting like a mist in its faint rays. Gus wiped off the ignition key, then went around to the side and back doors of the van. He tried the handles, just to see. They were locked.
He thought about it a moment, and then curiosity got the better of him. He tried the key.
The locks were different from the ignition. Part of him was relieved.
Terrorists, he thought. Could be I'm a f**king terrorist now. Driving a van full of explosives.
What he could do was drive the van back out of here. Park it outside the nearest police precinct, leave a note on the windshield. Have them see if it's anything or nothing.
But these f**kers had his address. His madre's address. Who were they?
He got angry, a heat flare of shame shooting up his back. He pounded the meat of his fist once against the side of the white van, demonstrating his dissatisfaction with the arrangement. A satisfying sound resounded within, breaking the silence. He gave up then, tossing the key onto the front seat and slamming the driver's door with his elbow-another satisfying bang.
But then-instead of getting quiet quickly again-he heard something. Or thought he did: something inside. With the last of the light eking in through the fan grate, Gus got right up to the locked back doors to listen, his ear almost touching the van.
Something. Almost...like a stomach rumbling. That same kind of empty, roiling hunger. A stirring.
Ah, what the f**k, he decided, stepping back. The deed is done. So long as the bomb goes off below 110th Street, what do I care?
A dull but distinct bang from inside the van rocked Gus back a step. The paper bag containing the second cerveza slipped from underneath his arm, and the can burst and sprayed beer over the gritty floor.
The spraying faded to a dull foaming, and Gus bent to gather up the mess, then stopped, crouching, his hand on the soaked bag.
The van listed ever so slightly. Its undercarriage springs pinged once.
Something had moved or shifted inside.
Gus straightened, leaving the burst beer on the ground and moving backward, shoes scraping the grit. A few steps away, he reset himself, willing himself to relax. His trick was to think that someone was watching him lose his cool. He turned and walked calmly to the closed garage door.
The spring creaked again, putting a hitch in his step, but not halting him.
He reached the black panel with a red plunger switch next to the door. He hit it with the heel of his hand, and nothing happened.
He hit it two more times, first slow and easy, then hard and fast, the spring action on the plunger sticking as though from disuse.
The van creaked again, and Gus did not allow himself to look back.
The garage door was made of faceless steel, no grip handles. Nothing to pull. He kicked it once and the thing barely rattled.
Another bang from inside the van, almost answering his own, followed by a severe creak, and Gus rushed back to the plunger. He hit it again, rapid-fire, and then a pulley whirred and the motor clicked and the chain started running.
The door began lifting off the ground.
Gus was outside before it was halfway up, scuttling up onto the sidewalk like a crab and then quickly catching his breath. He turned and waited, watching the door open, hold there, and then go back down again. He made certain it closed tightly and that nothing emerged.
Then he looked around, shaking off his nerves, checking his hat-and walked to the corner, guilty fast, wanting to put another block between him and the van. He crossed to Vesey Street and found himself standing before the Jersey barriers and construction fences surrounding the city block that had been the World Trade Center. It was all dug out now, the great basin a gaping hole in the crooked streets of Lower Manhattan, with cranes and construction trucks building up the site again.