Michael nearly choked. “I beg your pardon?”
“Marry her,” Colin said with a shrug. “It seems simple enough.”
It was probably too much to hope that Colin was speaking of anyone but Francesca, but Michael took one desperate stab, anyway, and said, in quite the chilliest tone he could muster, “To whom, might I ask, do you refer?”
Colin lifted his eyebrows. “Do we really need to play this game?”
“I can’t marry Francesca,” Michael sputtered.
“Why not?”
“Because-” He cut himself off. Because there were a hundred reasons he couldn’t marry her, none of which he could speak aloud. So he just said, “She was married to my cousin.”
“Last I checked, there was nothing illegal in that.”
No, but there was everything immoral. He’d wanted Francesca for so long, loved her for what felt like an eternity-even when John had been living. He had deceived his cousin in the basest way possible; he would not compound the betrayal by stealing his wife.
It would complete the ugly circle that had led to his being the Earl of Kilmartin, a title that was never supposed to have been his. None of it was supposed to be his. And except for those damned boots he’d forced Reivers to toss in a wardrobe, Francesca was the only thing left of John’s that he hadn’t made his own.
John’s death had given him fabulous wealth. It had given him power, prestige, and the title of earl.
If it gave him Francesca as well, how could he possibly hang onto the thread of hope that he hadn’t somehow, even if only in his dreams, wished for this to happen?
How could he live with himself then?
“She has to marry someone,” Colin said.
Michael looked up, aware that he’d been silent with his thoughts for some time. And that Colin had been watching him closely all the while. He shrugged, trying to maintain a cavalier mien, even though he suspected it wouldn’t fool the man across the table. “She’ll do what she wants,” he said. “She always does.”
“She might marry hastily,” Colin murmured. “She wants to have children before she’s too old.”
“She’s not too old.”
“No, but she might think she is. And she might worry that others will think she is, as well. She didn’t conceive with your cousin, after all. Well, not successfully.”
Michael had to clutch the end of the table to keep from rising. He could have had Shakespeare at his side to translate, and still not have been able to explain why Colin’s remark infuriated him so.
“If she chooses too hastily,” Colin added, almost offhandedly, “she might choose someone who would be cruel to her.”
“Francesca?” Michael asked derisively. Maybe some other woman would be that foolish, but not his Francesca.
Colin shrugged. “It could happen.”
“Even if it did,” Michael countered, “she would never remain in such a marriage.”
“What choice would she have?”
“This is Francesca” Michael said. Which really should have explained it all.
“I suppose you’re right,” Colin acceded, sipping at his drink. “She could always take refuge with the Bridger-tons. We would certainly never force her to return to a cruel spouse.” He set his glass down on the table and sat back. “Besides, the point is moot, anyway, is it not?”
There was something strange in Colin’s tone, something hidden and provoking. Michael looked up sharply, unable to resist the impulse to search the other man’s face for clues to his agenda. “And why is that?” he asked.
Colin took another sip of his drink. Michael noticed that the volume of liquid in the glass never seemed to go down.
Colin toyed with his glass for several moments before looking up, his gaze settling on Michael’s face. To anyone else, it might have seemed a bland expression, but there was something in Colin’s eyes that made Michael want to squirm in his seat. They were sharp and piercing, and although different in color, shaped precisely like Francesca’s.
It was damned eerie, that.
“Why is the point moot?” Colin murmured thoughtfully. “Well, because you so clearly don’t wish to marry her.”
Michael opened his mouth for a quick retort, then slammed it shut when he realized-with more than considerable shock-that he’d been about to say, “Of course I do.”
And he did.
He wanted to marry her.
He just didn’t think he could live with his conscience if he did.
“Are you quite all right?” Colin asked.
Michael blinked. “Perfectly so, why?”
Colin’s head tilted slightly to the side. “For a moment there, you looked…” He gave his head a shake. “It’s nothing.”
“What, Bridgerton?” Michael nearly snapped.
“Surprised,” Colin said. “You looked rather surprised. Bit odd, I thought.”
Dear God, one more moment with Colin Bridgerton, and the bloody bastard would have all of Michael’s secrets laid open and bare. Michael pushed his chair back. “I need to be going,” he said abruptly.
“Of course,” Colin said genially, as if their entire conversation had consisted of horses and the weather.
Michael stood, then gave a curt nod. It wasn’t a terribly warm farewell, considering that they were relations of a sort, but it was the best he could do under the circumstances.
“Think about what I said,” Colin murmured, just when Michael had reached the door.
Michael let out a harsh laugh as he pushed through the door and into the hall. As if he’d be able to think about anything else.