And then I’m at his door.
I lift my hand to knock as a girl laughs on the other side. My knuckles land against the wood in a tremble. Is that Jessica?
Again?
The door pops open, and . . . it’s Anna.
“Hey, space cowgirl!” She’s already taken in the silver fringe dress and my red cowboy boots. For one nightmarish second, I’m consumed by suspicion, but the door swings back and reveals St. Clair. Of course. He and Cricket are sitting against the side of Cricket’s bed. And then Cricket Bell sees me, and the atmosphere lights up.
My soul lights up in response.
“Hi.” He springs to his feet. “Hi,” he says again.
“I was worried that you wouldn’t have time to eat lunch today.” I hold up the takeout as I notice a spread of empty Chinese boxes on the floor. “Oh.”
Anna gives me a gap-toothed grin. “Don’t worry. He’ll eat what you’ve brought, too.”
“His stomach is quite tall,” St. Clair says.
“And yours is so wee,” Anna says. He shoves her legs from his place on the floor, and she shoves his back. They’re like puppies.
Cricket gestures me forward with both arms. “Here, come in, sit down.”
I glance around. Every surface is covered.
“Uh, hold on,” he says. There’s a mound of school papers spread across the surface of his bed, which he bulldozes aside.
“Here. Sit here.”
“We should go,” Anna says. “We just stopped by to feed Cricket and grill him about the Olympics. Did you know they’re in France this year?” She sighs. “I’m dying for a visit.” Her boyfriend bites a pinkie nail. “And I’m trying to convince her that if Calliope makes the team, we should consider it a sign and take the holiday.”
I smile at Anna. “Lucky you.”
St. Clair turns toward Cricket and points an accusing finger.
“I’m counting on you to ensure your sister wins at Nationals next weekend, all right?”
My heart selfishly plummets. Next weekend. More time away from Cricket.
“She only has to get one of the top three spots,” Cricket says.
“But I’ll take out an opponent’s kneecap if I have to.” Anna prods St. Clair’s shoulder. “Come on. Weren’t you gonna show me that thing?”
“What thing?”
She stares at him. He stares back. She cocks her head toward Cricket and me.
“Ah, yes.” St. Clair stands. “That thing.”
They rush out. The door shuts, and St. Clair shouts, “Lola, Cricket wants to show you his thing, too-oo!” They’re laughing as their feet echo down the hall.
Cricket hastily looks away from me and places the carton of Bibimbap in his microwave.
“Oh. I got something beef-y for you,” I say, because he’s heating the vegetarian dish first.
He shrugs and smiles. “I know. I saw.”
I smile, too, and sit on the edge of his bed. “So all three of you are going to France, and I’m staying here? Talk about unfair.” I’m only half kidding.
“You should come.”
I snort. “Yeah, my parents would definitely be cool with that.” But Cricket looks thoughtful. “You know, Andy loves figure skating. If you had a free ticket, he might bite.”
“And where, exactly, would I find a free ticket?” He sits beside me. “Courtesy of my great-great-great-grandfather Alexander Graham Bell, the world’s richest liar?” I stop smiling. “Cricket. I could never accept that.” He nudges one of my cowboy boots with one of his pointy wingtips. “Think about it.”
My foot tingles from the shoe-on-shoe contact. I nudge his shoe back. He nudges mine. The microwave beeps, and he hesitates, unsure if he should get up. I reach out and take his wrist, over his rubber bands and bracelets. “I’m not that hungry,” I say.
Cricket looks down at my hand.
I slide my index finger underneath a red bracelet. My finger brushes the skin of his inner wrist, and he releases a small sound. His eyes close. I twine my finger in and out of his bracelets, tying myself against him. I close my eyes, too. My finger guides us onto our backs, and we lie beside each other, quietly attached, for several minutes.
“Where’s Dustin?” I finally ask.
“He’ll be back soon. Unfortunately.”
I open my eyes, and he’s staring me. I wonder how long his eyes have been open. “That’s okay,” I say. “I came here to give you a late Christmas present.”
His eyebrows raise.
I smile. “Not that kind of present.” I untangle my finger from his wrist and roll over to grab my purse from his floor. I rummage through it until I find
the tiny something taken from my sock drawer. “Actually, it’s more like a late birthday present.”
“How . . . belated of you?”
I roll back toward him. “Hold out your hand.” He’s smiling. He does.
“I’m sure you don’t remember anymore, but several birthdays ago, you needed this.” And I place a tiny wrench into his palm.
“Lindsey and I went everywhere to find it, but then . . . I couldn’t give it to you.”
His expression falls. “Lola.”
I close his fingers around the gift. “I threw away your bottle cap, because it killed me to look at. But I never could throw away this. I’ve been waiting to give it to you for two and a half years.”
“I don’t know what to say,” he whispers.
“I’m almost full,” I say. “Thank you for waiting for me, too.”
Chapter thirty-one
The doorbell rings early the next Saturday. It wakes me from a deep slumber, but I immediately fall back asleep. I’m surprised when I’m being shaken awake moments later. “You’re needed downstairs,” Andy says. “Now.”
I sit up. “Norah? She was kicked out already?”
“Calliope. It’s an emergency.”
I tear out of bed. An emergency with Calliope can only mean one thing: an emergency with Cricket. We’ve been texting, so I know he planned to come home before leaving for Nationals.
But his light was off when I got back from work last night. I couldn’t tell if he was there. What if he tried to come home, and something happened along the way? “Oh God, oh God, oh God, oh God, oh God.” I throw on a kimono and race downstairs, where Calliope is pacing our living room. Her normally smooth hair is unwashed and disheveled, and her complexion is puffy and red.
“Is he okay? What happened? Where is he?”
Calliope stops. She cocks her head, muddled and confused.
“Who?”
“CRICKET!”
“No.” She’s momentarily thrown. “It’s not Cricket, it’s me. It’s .
. . this.” Her hands tremble as she holds out a large brown paper bag.
I’m so relieved that nothing is wrong with Cricket—and I’m so upset for thinking that something was wrong—that I snatch the bag a bit too harshly.
I peer inside. It’s filled with shredded red gauze.
And then I gasp with understanding. “Your costume!” Calliope bursts into tears. “It’s for my long program.” I carefully remove one of the shimmering strips of torn fabric.
“What happened?”
“Abby. You’d think she was a dog, not a child. When Mom came down for breakfast, she discovered her playing in . . . this.
I’d left my costume downstairs for cleaning. Who would’ve thought she could rip it?” Calliope’s panic grows. “I didn’t even know she was strong enough. And we’re leaving tomorrow!
And my seamstress is out of town, and I know you can’t stand the sight of me, but you’re my only hope. Can you fix it in time?”
As intriguing as it is to be her only hope, there’s no hope to be had. “I’m sorry,” I say. “But I can’t fix this period. It’s ruined.”
“But you HAVE to do something. There has to be something you can do!”
I hold up a handful of shreds. “These are barely big enough to blow your nose on. If I sewed them back together—even if I could, which I can’t—it’d look terrible.You wouldn’t be able to compete in it.”
“Why can’t you wear one of your old costumes?” Nathan interrupts.
Andy looks horrified. “She can’t do that.”
“Why not?” Nathan asks. “It’s not the outfit that wins competitions.”
Calliope shudders, and that’s when I remember her second-place curse. She must have already been racked by nerves, and then to add this on top of it? I do feel sorry for her. “No,” she says. The word barely comes out. “I can’t do that.” She turns to me with her entire body, an eerily familiar
gesture. “Please.”
I feel helpless. “I’d have to make a new one. There’s no—”
“You could make a new one?” she asks desperately.
“No!” I say. “There’s not enough time.”
“Please,” she says. “Please, Lola.”
I’m feeling frantic. I want her to know that I’m a good person, that I’m not worthless, that I deserve her brother. “Okay. Okay,” I repeat. Everyone stares at me as I stare at the tatters. If only I had bigger pieces to work with. These are so small that they wouldn’t even make a full costume anymore.
It hits me. “About those old costumes—”
Calliope moans.
“No, listen,” I say. “How many do you have?”
She gives me another familiar gesture, the parted mouth and furrowed brow. The difficult equation face. “I don’t know. A lot.
A dozen, at least.”
“Bring them over.”
“They don’t all fit anymore! I can’t wear them, I won’t—”
“You won’t have to,” I reassure her. “We’ll use the parts to make something new.”
She’s on the verge of hysterics again. “You’re Frankensteining me?”
But I feel calm now that I have a plan. “I won’t Frankenstein you. I’ll revamp you.”
She’s back in five minutes, and she returns with . . . Cricket.
Their arms are piled high with stretchy fabric and sparkly beads.
His hair is still sleep-tousled, and he’s not wearing his bracelets.
His wrists look nak*d. Our eyes meet, and his thoughts are just as exposed: gratitude for helping his sister and the unmistakable ache of longing.
The ache is reciprocated.
I lead them upstairs to my bedroom. Cricket hesitates at the bottom, unsure if he’s allowed to go up. Andy gives him a prod on the back, and I’m relieved. “We’ll definitely find something in all of this,” I tell Calliope.
She’s still on edge. “I can’t believe my stupid niece did this to me.”
My facial muscles twinge, but I’d say the same thing if I were in her situation. “Let’s spread out the costumes and see what we have.”
“Spread them out where?”