Even his body language was more relaxed. He helped me into the Jeep, then lingered at my side for a slow, maddening kiss.
The drive up to Rocky Mountain National Park was breathtaking. As we neared the mountains, the road wound alongside gushing rivers, sheer walls of rock, and towering stone formations that looked like faces.
Matt asked about my first day of work. He was smiling and curious, not gruff and paranoid. Thank god.
I had barely considered my first whirlwind workday as Pam's secretary; I'd been too worried about Matt. It was a relief to describe the work and make Matt laugh with anecdotes about Pam.
"But I love the job," I told him. "I wish I could describe the feeling that came over me as I read manuscripts. It was like... I was meant for this. Like I was finally doing a job I could see myself making into a career."
When I looked at Matt, he was glowing.
He was surprisingly chaste on the drive up to the park. Sometimes he took my hand, and once he ran his fingers from my knee to the top of my thigh.
We stopped in Estes Park, a quaint town on the front range, and waded through crowds of tourists for a lunch of the best fudge I ever tasted.
Matt made me try each flavor he bought—vanilla, maple, amaretto, chocolate cream. That I had never been to the park flabbergasted him. He dragged me into the shops and bought me a beaded bracelet, a little bird figurine, and a tiny bronze padlock on a chain.
"I'll get it engraved," he said, fastening the chain behind my neck.
Engraved with what? I smiled and touched the lock. HM, I thought. Hannah & Matt. Maybe I would surprise him and get the engraving done myself.
It was near two when we finally drove into the park proper.
We left everything in the car and hiked out to a glacial lake. I took pictures of Matt when he wasn't looking. His athletic body was beautiful in motion, and his dark shirt and shorts emphasized the gold tone of his skin and the natural highlights in his hair.
The air was thin and cool and smelled of pine. I felt giddy.
"Exhilarating, right?" Matt caught my hand as we looked across a vista.
"God, I feel like Wordsworth in the Alps!" I laughed.
Evening's shadows fall suddenly in the mountains. One minute Matt and I were sweating on the trail, the next I was shivering and squished to his side.
"I packed an extra fleece," he told me as we headed back to the Jeep.
The hike and altitude sapped me. My sugar rush was crashing. Still, as we set out on the trail toward our campsite, I began to feel a very different kind of energy—the rising anticipation of Matt's touch.
Our site was a secluded clearing surrounded by pines. I heard water rushing in the distance. Matt built a fire in the metal ring and hurried through pitching the tent. We spread foam mats under our sleeping bags.
I don't know if I could have felt less sexy. I was sticky with sweat and bug spray and wearing old sneakers, a pair of jeans, and a t-shirt—and now an oversized black fleece.
I perched on a rock by the fire pit. Matt stood nearby, staring into the woods. In the half-light, he looked wild—an animal that would melt into the shadows if I snapped a twig.
Sparks whirled upward. Beyond the light of our fire, the night was cool and silent.
"I brought food," Matt murmured. He turned his gaze down at me. His dark, hungry eyes flashed with reflected flames. "Are you hungry?"
I shook my head.
I didn't want to speak. I didn't want to shatter the magic of the night. My eyes traveled down Matt's body. I knew he was watching me and I looked boldly at his groin.
"Yeah?" he whispered. He stepped closer and reached for my hair, winding my ponytail around his hand. "Suck on me, Hannah."
I undid Matt's shorts and slid his semi-erect cock from his boxers. It swelled in my hands. I began to lick and suckle at it, taking as much as I could. I fondled Matt's balls as I sucked.
"Oh, Hannah... baby."
Matt was fully hard in moments. He pulled me to my feet and we undressed one another. Talk about exhilarating; standing naked in the woods with Matt made my heart rush and skip.
The heat of the fire baked my legs. The chill of the evening hardened my nipples.
I knew we were alone, and yet I felt like we were on a stage. I felt as if the impenetrable darkness were filled with eyes.
Matt kissed me, trapping his cock between us. I stroked his muscled body and rocked into the hard organ, making him moan.
"Hannah," he sighed. "Hannah..."
I loved the way he said my name. I loved the hundreds of flavors of his voice.
I hooked my hands over his shoulders and climbed onto him. He lifted me easily, gripping my thighs. He lowered me onto his cock.
We locked eyes as he penetrated me. The pleasure of the invasion made me wriggle against his body. God, he was letting me down so slowly. I felt each inch stretching me open.
"Tell me about my cock," Matt whispered.
As always, I felt disturbingly eager to please him.
"Matt..." I wet my lips. "It... it fills me. It almost hurts, but I always want it. The whole thing. I want it inside of me."
Matt lowered me another inch and I gasped. He had all the power in this position. I had no leverage to force myself onto his shaft.
"Go on," he said, his voice low in deference to the night.
"I love the taste of it," I whispered, "and the taste of your cum. When you ride me hard, I—" I moaned as Matt let me down all the way, his cock pressed up into me deeply. "Ah, god... Matt, god, I lose my mind."
"Tell me, Hannah. Do you like it deep?"
"Yes." I rolled my head back. I felt secure clinging to Matt. He would never let me fall.