As Qhuinn watched the show, his tongue parted his mouth and took a lick of his lips.
Across the shallow room, Blay was up on the hospital bed, that perfect torso angled forward so he could partake of the Chosen's vein, his hands, those capable, well-trained, strong hands, holding the fragile wrist to his mouth with care - as though, even in the throes of feeding, he was a gentlemale.
As he continued to drink, his torso curved around even tighter, his rib cage flexing and settling with every breath, his head subtly shifting with every swallow.
It was all Qhuinn could do to stay where he was. He so wanted up on that mattress as well, twisting that body around so he could come in from behind. He wanted to be at the male's throat as Blay took from the Chosen. He wanted to fuck the guy for twelve or fifteen hours straight when they were both done.
After all the drama with Luchas, this short, intense respite from the shock and pain was a glorious, guilty relief: it was just too damn good to focus on something like this - his tired mind and exhausted body ready to be refreshed so he could come back to reality fighting strong once again.
God, his brother...
Shaking his head, he deliberately gave his brain something erotic to play with: As Blay's hand sneaked between his legs and rearranged something at his fly, it was pretty damn clear he was fully aroused.
As if that delicious scent didn't make it obvious.
Just as Qhuinn was about to lose it, Blay lifted his head and let out a chuffing sound of satisfaction. Then the male licked at the puncture wounds he'd made.
You know what, Qhuinn thought. Fuck the feeding. All he needed was Blay....
"And you, sire?" the Chosen asked.
Crap. He probably should do it.
Besides, Blay was clearly in a postfeeding logy state, his body slow, his eyes fuzzy - and Qhuinn took advantage of it, pushing himself between the fighter and the Chosen, his ass rubbing against the hard ridge of Blay's cock as he hopped up onto the bed.
While Blay let out a groan, Qhuinn leaned over and took the female's other wrist. Holding it with one hand, he used his other to yank out the bottom of his muscle shirt - and then shove Blay's palm down the front of his own pants.
Qhuinn kept his own groan to himself by taking a hard pull on the Chosen's vein, but Blay's hiss sounded out.
Maybe the Chosen would assume it -
Qhuinn's eyes rolled back in his head as Blay stroked him, the friction threatening to make him come right then and there - which was not something he wanted to do in front of Selena.
But, oh, fuck, that was -
He put his own hand down there, stilling that movement.
So Blay just gave his balls a good squeeze.
Qhuinn climaxed on his next swallow, the orgasm shooting out of him before he could think of any kind of boring and unattractive distraction, the pleasure cresting with such power, he sagged in his own skin.
Blay's chuckle was erotic as hell.
Whatever, payback was going to be a bitch, Qhuinn vowed to himself.
And as it turned out, he couldn't wait for it. He retracted his fangs and stopped drinking before he'd had his fill - because his hunger for something else had completely taken over, and it was beyond time to send Selena on her way.
Getting the Chosen out in a polite but expeditious manner was an autopilot maneuver - he had no clue what he was saying - but at least she was smiling and looking pleased, so he must have done the right thing.
He was very conscious of locking the door, however.
As he turned around, he found Blay stretched out and attending to himself, his hand stroking up and down between his legs. His fangs were still elongated from the feeding, and his eyes were glowing from under heavy lids, and holy fuck was he hot...
Qhuinn ditched his shitkickers. His leathers. His shirt.
Blay orgasmed before he even started for the bed, the male arching up and moaning as his head shot back on the thin pillow, and his hips jerked.
Like Qhuinn buck-ass naked was too much to handle.
Best. Compliment. Ever.
Qhuinn attacked the bed, pouncing on Blay, finding that velvet mouth and taking it over. Clothes were ripped - the buttons on the fly of Blay's leathers popping free and landing like coins tossed onto the linoleum, his shirt getting torn into pieces. And then they were skin-on-skin, nothing separating their flesh.
As they writhed against each other, Qhuinn knew what he wanted. And he was too desperate and hungry to ask nicely - or even talk about it.
All he could do was break off from that mouth, roll away from Blay...and reach behind, pulling the male onto him as he stretched one leg up.
What do you know, Blay took over from there. And knew exactly what to do.
Qhuinn felt himself get positioned with rough hands - before he knew it, he was up on his knees, his face in the mattress, his breath hammering out of his mouth. It was all so foreign, letting someone else take charge - and he felt vulnerable, too, even through the wanting -
"Oh fuck!" he bellowed as the possession was struck, the sensations of pain and pleasure, stretching and accommodation, mixing into a cocktail that made him come so hard he saw stars.
And then Blay started moving.
Qhuinn braced his arms and bore backward, holding his own as that whole virginity thing was done and dusted but good.
Oh, man, it was an incredible rush, and it only got better. As Blay's arm snaked around his chest and locked on, the angle changed, the penetrations going deeper and deeper, faster and faster, the bed beginning to rock back and forth against the wall, the panting in his ear growing harsher and harsher....
The cusp was the single greatest burn he'd ever felt, the edge of not just his release, but Blay's, tightening him up all over, his thighs clenching, his pelvis tilting to receive, his great arms holding them both up off the bed -
When Blay came, the thrusts locked him in so hard Qhuinn's head banged into the wall - not that he noticed or cared. And then that cock started jerking wildly...
And Qhuinn felt well and truly owned for the first time in his life.
It was...nothing short of a miracle.
Naturally, it took a while for Blay to have had his fill. And, funnily enough, Qhuinn was so totally fine with that.
When things eventually reached a pause that lasted longer than a minute and a half, Qhuinn released the tension in his arms and sank down to the bed, turning onto his side. Blay was apparently exhausted as well, his body following the lead and stretching out behind him.
Blay's arm stayed in place.
And what mattered now, in spite of the whole experience, was the loose, heavy weight of that limb. Lying as it did, it made them not two males who'd had sex and happened to be side by side...but lovers.
In actuality, he'd never had a lover before - and not because he'd just bottomed for the first time in his life. He'd had plenty of sex. But there had never been someone he'd wanted to hold him afterward. Never someone he'd wanted to hold back.
Yeah...Blay was his first real lover.
And though he'd missed out on that honor when it came to the guy, it seemed apt that Blay be his. No one could ever take away your first - and he counted himself lucky. He'd heard through the grapevine that a lot of times it was either really painful - for females - or just such a mad scramble, nothing registered.
This, he would remember forever.
Behind him, Blay was still breathing deeply, the heat radiating from him, their bodies still joined.
And Qhuinn wanted to take advantage of this quiet space: Ever so slowly - like maybe if he didn't move too fast the guy wouldn't notice - he covered Blay's forearm with his own...then put his hand over his friend's.
Closing his eyes, he prayed that this was okay. That they could stay like this for just a little bit.
Shit, the sudden fear he felt was nothing short of torture, and it made him think about the nature of courage.
Specifically how little he'd had of it when it had come to Blay.
From out of the blue, he remembered telling the guy that he only saw himself with a female, long-term. That that was the reason he couldn't take Blay up on what he was offering. At the time, he'd meant every word of it - but he hadn't looked very far into the conviction.
He'd been a coward back then, hadn't he.
"God, I feel raw," he whispered.
"What?" came a sleepy response.
"I feel..." Exposed.
Like if Blay pulled away right now? He would shatter into pieces that would never fit together right again.
Blay let out a snuffle and jerked his arm, pulling Qhuinn closer, not pushing him off. "You cold? You're shaking."
"Warm me?"
There was some shuffling, and then a blanket was thrown over them both. Then the lights went off.
As Blay took a deep breath and seemed content to settle in for the duration, Qhuinn closed his eyes...and dared to thread his fingers through his best friend's, forming a seal of their hands.
"You okay?" Blay asked in a muffled way. Like there was nothing but a pilot light left on in his brain - but he did care.
"Yeah. Just cold."
Qhuinn opened his lids against the darkness. The only thing he could see was the line of light that came under the door at floor level.
As Blay drifted off, that breathing becoming ever more slower and even, Qhuinn stared ahead, even though he couldn't see anything in front of him.
Courage.
He thought he'd had all he needed - that the way he'd grown up had made him tougher and stronger than anyone else. That the way he did his job, running into burning buildings or jumping into the captain's seats of busted-up aircraft, proved it. That how he lived his life, essentially apart, meant he was strong. Meant he was safe.
The true measure of courage was still waiting for him, however.
After way too many years, he'd finally told Blay he was sorry. And then after way too much drama, he'd finally told the guy he was grateful.
But coming forward and being real about the fact that he was in love? Even if Blay was with someone else?
That was the true divide.
And goddamn him, he was going to do it.
Not to break the pair of them up - no, that wasn't it. And not to burden Blay.
In this case, payback, as it turned out, was actually a pledge. Something that was made with no expectations and no reservations. It was the jump without a parachute, the leap without knowing, the trip and the fall without anything to catch you.
Blay had done that not once, but several times - and yeah, sure, Qhuinn wanted to go back to any of those moments of vunerability and beat his earlier incarnations so badly that his head cleared, and he recognized the opportunity he'd been given.
Unfortunately, shit didn't run that way.
It was time for him to repay the strength...and in all likelihood, bear the pain that was going to come when he was turned down in a far more kindly manner than he'd provided for.
Forcing his lids down, he brought Blay's knuckles to his mouth, brushing a kiss against them. Then he gave himself up to sleep, letting himself fall into unconsciousness, knowing that, at least for the next few hours, he was safe in the arms of his one and only.