7
THE HALL FELT COOLER, though I knew it wasn't. I leaned beside the closed door, eyes closed, breathing in great draughts of air. The corridor was full of noise after that silent hissing room. People walking, moving, and Lieutenant Marks' voice, "Not so fucking tough after all, eh, Ms. Blake."
I opened my eyes and looked at him. He was sitting in the chair that had probably been brought up for the uniform guarding the door. The uniformed officer was nowhere to be seen. Only Edward leaned against the far wall, hands behind his back. He was watching my face, watching me, as if he'd memorize my fear. "I made it through three patients before I had to leave the room. How many did you see before you had to go outside, Marks?"
"I didn't have to leave the fucking room."
"Doctor Evans said that no one has made it through the room, all the way through the room without having to run out. That means you didn't make it either, Marks. So piss off."
He was on his feet now. "You ... you witch." He spat the last word at me as if it were the worst insult he could come up with.
"Don't you mean bitch?" I said. I was feeling better out here in the hallway.
Trading insults with Marks was a cakewalk compared to my other choices.
"I said what I meant."
"If you don't know the difference between a real witch and an animator, no wonder you haven't caught the thing that's doing this."
"What do you mean 'thing'?" he asked.
"Thing, thing, monster."
"The Feds think it's a serial mutilator," he said.
I glanced at Edward. "Nice of someone to tell me what the Feds said."
Edward didn't look guilty in the least. He gave me pleasant, unreadable, and I turned my attention back to Marks. "Then why aren't there any tool marks from the skinning?"
Marks glanced down the corridor where a nurse was pushing a small cart. "We don't discuss an ongoing investigation in the open, where anyone can hear us."
"Fine, then after I've gone back in there and looked at the last three ... bodies, we'll go some place more private and talk about the case."
I think he paled just a bit. "You're going back in there?"
"The victims are the clues, Lieutenant. You know that."
"We can take you to the crime scenes," he said. It was the nicest thing he'd ever said to me.
"Great, and I need to see them, but right this moment we're here and the only possible clues are inside that room." My breathing had returned to normal and the sick sweat had dried on my forehead. Maybe I was a touch pale myself, but I was mobile and felt almost normal.
I walked into the middle of the hall and motioned Edward over to me, as if I had something for his ears alone. He pushed away from the wall and came toward me. When he was close enough, I faked a low kick he looked down for just an instant, reacting to it, and the second, higher kick caught him in the jaw. He went backwards hard. He had his arms up to defend his face. He knew enough to defend the vital areas, and worry about standing later.
My heart was thudding in my chest, not from exertion, but from adrenaline. I'd never used my new-found Kenpo skills in a fight. Trying it out for real for the very first time on Edward was probably not my best idea, but hey, it had worked. Though truthfully, I was a little surprised it had worked that easily. In the back of my head a voice wondered if Edward had let me take him down. The front of my head said that he had too much ego for that. I believed the second voice. I stayed where I was in a modified horse stance. It was pretty much the only stance I knew well enough to go back to once a kick was launched. I had my fists up, waiting, but didn't move in.
When Edward figured out I wasn't going to do anything else, he lowered his arm and stared at me. "What the hell was that?" There was blood on his lower lip.
"I've been taking Kenpo," I said.
"Kenpo?"
"It's sort of like Tae-kwon-do with fewer kicks and more fluid movements, a lot of hand work."
"A black belt in Judo wasn't enough?" he asked, and it was Ted's voice asking.
"Judo's great exercise, but it's not great for self-defense. You have to close with the bad guy and grapple. This way I can stay out of reach and still do damage."
He touched his lip and came away with blood. "I see that. Why?"
"Why did I kick you in the face?" I asked.
He nodded, and I think he winced ever so slightly. Great.
"Why didn't you warn me about the victims? Tell me what I was up against?"
"I walked in on them cold," he said. "I wanted to see how you handled it cold"
"This is not a pissing contest, Edward. Ted. I am not competing with you. I know you're better than me, tougher than me, colder than me. You win, okay? Stop with the macho bullshit."
"I'm not so sure," he said, softly.
"Not sure about what?" I asked.
"Who's tougher. Remember, I didn't make it through the whole room either."
I stared at him. "Fine, you want to go one on one, great, but not now. We are supposed to be solving a case. We are supposed to be making sure that what happened to those people doesn't happen to anyone else. When we're back on our own time, then you can get competitive. Until we solve this, cut it the fuck out, or you are going to seriously piss me off."
Edward got slowly to his feet. I backed away out of reach. I'd never seen him use martial arts before, but I put nothing past him.
A sound made me back up further until I could see Edward and Marks without looking away from Edward. Marks was making a small sniggering sound. It took me a moment to realize he was laughing, laughing so hard his face was purplish and he seemed to be having trouble breathing.
Edward and I both stared at him.
When Marks could finally talk, he said, "You kick a man in the face, and that's not seriously pissed off." He straightened, hand to his side like he had a stitch in it. "What the fuck do you call seriously pissed?"
I felt my face going blank, my eyes going empty. For just an instant I let Marks see the gaping hole where my conscience was supposed to be. I didn't really mean to, but I couldn't seem to help it. Maybe I was more shaken up from the room and its survivors than I thought. It's the only excuse I can give.
Marks' face went from fading laughter to something like concern. He gave me cop eyes, but underneath that was an uncertainty that was almost fear.
"Smile, Lieutenant. It's a good day. No one died."
I watched the thought spill through his face. He understood exactly what I meant. You should never even hint to the police that you're willing to kill, but I was tired, and I still had to go back into the room. Fuck it.
Edward spoke in his own voice, low and empty, "And you wonder why I compete with you?"
I turned eyes that I knew were just as dead as his to meet his gaze. I shook my head. "I don't wonder why you compete with me ... Ted. I just told you to stop doing it until the case is solved."
"And then?" he asked.
"Then we'll see, won't we?"
I didn't see fear on Edward's face. I saw anticipation. And that was the difference between us. He enjoyed killing. I didn't. What really scared me was the thought that that might be the only difference between us now. It wasn't enough of a difference for me to throw stones in Edward's direction. I still had more rules than Edward did. There were still things that he would do that I wouldn't, but even that list had been growing shorter of late. There was something close to panic fluttering in my stomach. Not fear of Edward or anything he could do, but wondering when I'd turned the corner and become just another monster. I'd told Doctor Evans we were the good guys, but if Edward and I were on the side of the angels, then what was left to be on the other side?
Something that could skin a person alive without using a tool of any kind. Something that would jerk the penis off a man and the breasts off a woman with its bare hands. As bad as Edward was, as bad as I'd become, there were worse things. And we were about to go hunting one of them.
8
IDID GO BACK into the room, and no, I didn't learn a damn thing from the last three victims. All that wasted bravery for nothing. Well, not exactly for nothing. I proved to myself that I could go back into the room without throwing up or fainting. I didn't care if it impressed Edward or Marks. It impressed me. If you can't impress yourself, then no one else really matters.
I either impressed Doctor Evans, or he needed a restorative cup of tea because he invited me back to the doctors and nurses lounge. There's no such thing as truly undrinkable coffee, but I hoped the tea was better for Evans' sake. Though I doubted it. The coffee came out of a can, and the tea was from little bags with strings on them. There's only so much you can hope for from prepackaged tea and coffee. At home I grind my own beans, but I wasn't home and I was grateful for the bitter warmth.
I added cream and sugar and noticed that the coffee was trembling in the cup, as if maybe my hands weren't quite steady. I was also cold. Nerves, just nerves.
If Edward had nerves, you couldn't tell it as he leaned against the wall, drinking his coffee black. He'd scorned sugar and cream, tough he-man that he was. He winced as he sipped, and I don't think it was the scalding liquid. His lip was swelling slightly from where I'd kicked him. It made me feel better. Childish but true.
Marks had taken a place on the room's only couch, blowing on his coffee. He'd taken cream and sugar in his. Evans settled down into the only chair that looked halfway comfortable, sighing as he stirred his tea.
Edward watched me, and I finally realized that he wouldn't sit down until I did. Screw it. I sat down in a chair that was far too straight-backed to be comfortable, but was placed so I could watch everyone in the room, including the door. There was a small, but full-size, refrigerator against the far wall. It was an older model, done in an odd shade of brown. A small L-shaped cabinet area housed a coffee maker, a second coffee maker with nothing but hot water in it, a sink, and a microwave oven.
Doctor Evans had used the hot water for his tea. There were white plastic spoons in an open packet, and a mug of those useless little coffee stirrers. There'd been a choice of sugar, Nutrasweet, and some other artificial sweetener that I'd never heard of. There was a circle of artificial creamer that had dried into a round crusty ridge where someone had sat a mug down in it. I concentrated on the minutia of the cabinet, trying not to think. For just a few moments I wanted to sip my coffee and not think. I still hadn't eaten today, and now I didn't want to.
"You said you had some questions for me, Ms. Blake." Doctor Evans spoke into the silence.
I jumped, and so did Marks. Only Edward stayed half-leaning against the wall, unmoved, blue eyes watching us all as if he were apart from the tension and the horror. Maybe he was, or maybe it was just an act. I just didn't know anymore.
I nodded, trying to focus. "How did they all survive?"
He tilted his head to one side. "Do you mean technically how did they survive? Medical detail?"
I shook my head. "No, I mean, one person surviving this much trauma, or even two, I'll buy. But most people wouldn't survive it, or am I wrong?"
Evans pushed his glasses more securely on his nose, but nodded. "No, you aren't wrong."
"Then how did all six of them survive?" I asked.
He frowned at me. "I'm not sure I understand exactly what you're trying to say here, Ms. Blake."
"I'm asking what are the chances that six people of varying sex, background, physical fitness, age, etc ... would all be able to survive the same amount of trauma. My understanding is that all the victims that were just skinned have survived, right?"
"Yes." Doctor Evans was watching me closely, pale eyes searching my face, waiting for me to go on.
"Why did they survive?"
"They're tough sons of bitches," Marks said.
I glanced at the lieutenant, then back to Evans. "Are they?"
"Are they what?" the doctor asked.
"Are they tough sons of bitches?"
He lowered his eyes as if thinking. "Two of the men worked out regularly, one of the women was a marathon runner. The other three were just ordinary. One of the men is close to sixty, and didn't have a regular exercise routine of any kind. The other woman is in her thirties but didn't ... " He looked at me. "No, they aren't particularly tough individuals, not physically anyway. But I've found that it's often the people who aren't physically strong or outwardly tough that survive the longest under torture. The he-men are usually the first to cave."
I forced myself not to glance at Edward, but it was an effort. "Let me test my understanding, Doctor. Have any people that have been skinned like the six in that room died?"
He blinked and again looked into the distance as if remembering, then he looked at me. "No, the only deaths have been those people torn apart."
"Then I ask again, why are they all alive? Why didn't at least one of them die from shock, blood loss, or a bad heart, or hell, the pure terror of it."
"People don't die from terror," Marks said.
I glanced at him. "Are you absolutely sure of that, Lieutenant?"
His handsome face looked petulant, stubborn. "Yeah, I'm sure."
I waved the comment away. I'd argue with Marks later. Right now I was chasing a point. "How did all six of them survive, Doctor? Not why this six, but why all of them?"
Evans nodded. "I see what you mean. How could all of them have survived it?"
I nodded. "Exactly. Some of them should have died, but they didn't."
"Whoever skinned them is an expert," Marks said. "He knew how to keep them alive."
"No," Edward said. "No matter how good you are at torture, you can't keep everybody alive. Even if you do exactly the same thing to each of them, some people die and some people live. You're not always sure why some make it, and some don't." His voice was very quiet, but it filled the hush of the room.
Doctor Evans looked at him, nodding. "Yes, yes, even an expert can't make people survive what was done to these six. You should lose some of them. For that matter I don't know why they're all still alive. Why hasn't one of them contracted some secondary infection? They are all remarkably healthy."
Marks stood so abruptly, he spilled coffee over his hand. He cursed, striding to the sink and throwing the cup and all in the sink. "How can you say they're healthy?" He looked over his shoulder at the doctor while he ran his hands under the water.
"They are still alive, Lieutenant, and for their condition that is very healthy indeed."
"Magic would do it," I said.
Everyone looked at me.
"There are spells that can keep a person alive during torture so that the torture can be prolonged."
Marks tore too much paper towel off the roll and turned on me, wiping his hands with small abrupt movements. "How can you say you don't do black magic?"
"I said there are spells that will do it, not that I did the spells," I said.
It took him three tries to get the paper towel in the waste basket. "Just knowing about such things is evil."
"Think what you like, Marks, but maybe one of the reasons you had to call me in is that you've kept yourself so lily white that you don't know enough to help these people. Maybe if you were more interested in solving crime than in saving your own soul you'd have wrapped this up by now."
"Saving a soul is more important than solving crime," he said. He was striding towards me now.
I stood up, coffee cup in my hand. "If you're more interested in souls than crime then become a minister, Marks. What we need right now is a cop."
He stalked towards me, and I think would have come close enough to exchange blows, but I watched him remember what I'd done out in the hall. I watched him remember caution, and he walked far around me to get to the door.
Doctor Evans glanced from one to the other of us, as if wondering what he'd missed.
Marks turned at the door, pointing a finger at me. "If I have my way, you are going to be back on a plane tonight. You can't ask the devil to help you catch the devil." With that he closed the door behind him.
Evans spoke into the silence. "There must be more in you, Ms. Blake, than mere toughness, something I haven't seen yet."
I looked at him and took a drink of the cooling coffee. "What would make you say that, doctor?"
"If I didn't know better, I'd say Lieutenant Marks is afraid of you," he said.
"He's afraid of what he thinks I am, Doctor Evans. He's jumping at shadows."
Evans looked up at me, his tea forgotten in his big hands. The look was a long considering one. I had an urge to squirm under such scrutiny, but fought it down. "Perhaps you are right, Ms. Blake, or perhaps he has seen something in you that I have not."
"When you spend all your time worrying that the devil is right behind you, eventually you start seeing him whether he's there or not," I said.
Evans stood, nodding. He rinsed his coffee mug in the sink, washing it out with a fresh paper towel and soap. He spoke without turning around. "I do not know if I will ever see the devil, but I have seen true evil, and if there is no devil behind it, still it is evil." He turned and looked at me. "And we must put a stop to it."
I nodded. "Yes," I said, "we must."
He smiled then, but his eyes stayed tired. "I will work with my colleagues here that are more accustomed to working with the living instead of the dead. We will try and discover why these six survive."
"And if it's magic?" I asked.
He nodded. "Do not tell Lieutenant Marks, but my wife is a witch. She has traveled the world with me seeing such things. Sometimes what we find is more up her alley than mine, not often, mind you. People are quite able to torment one another without aid of magic. But occasionally it has been more."
"Don't take this wrong," I said, "but why haven't you called her in before this?"
He took in a long breath and let it out. "She was out of the country on another matter. Why, you may ask, didn't I call her home sooner?"
I shook my head. "I wasn't going to ask."
He smiled. "Thank you for that. I reasoned that my wife was needed elsewhere, and the FBI seemed so sure it was a person." He glanced at Edward then back to me. "The truth is, Ms. Blake, something about all this frightens me. I am not a man who is easily frightened."
"You're afraid for your wife," I said.
He stared at me as if he could look into my mind with those pale eyes. "Wouldn't you be?"
I touched his arm, gently. "Trust your instincts, doctor. If it feels wrong, send her away."
He drew away from my touch, smiling, tossing the paper towel into the trash can. "That would be terribly superstitious of me."
"You've got a bad feeling about your wife's involvement with this thing. Trust your gut. Don't try to be reasonable. If you love your wife, listen to your heart, not your head."
He nodded twice then said, "I will think about what you said. Now I really must be going."
I held out my hand. He took it. "Thanks for your time, doctor."
"My ... pleasure, Ms. Blake." He nodded to Edward. "Mr. Forrester."
Edward nodded in return, and we were left in the silence of the lounge. "Listen to your heart and not your head. Damn romantic advice, coming from you," Edward said.
"Drop it," I said. I had my hand on the door handle.
"How would your love life be if you took your own advice?" he asked.
I opened the door and walked out into the cool white hallway without answering him.