The hawk whirled, almost absentmindedly, and ripped skin from Roland's arm in a long, dangling gash. Then it went back to its meal.
With a grunt, Roland looped the leash again, this time catching David's diving, slashing beak on the leather gauntlet he wore. He gave the hawk another piece of meat, then hooded it. Docilely, David climbed onto his wrist.
He stood up proudly, the hawk on his arm.
"What's this?" Cort asked, pointing to the dripping slash on Roland's forearm. The boy stationed himself to receive the blow, locking his throat against any possible cry, but no blow fell.
"He struck me," Roland said.
"You pissed him off," Cort said. "The hawk does not fear you, boy, and the hawk never will. The hawk is God's gunslinger."
Roland merely looked at Cort. He was not an imaginative boy, and if Cort had intended to imply a moral, it was lost on him; he was pragmatic enough to believe that it might have been one of the few foolish statements he had ever heard Cort make.
Cuthbert came up behind them and stuck his tongue out at Cort, safely on his blind side. Roland did not smile, but nodded to him.
"Go in now," Cort said, taking the hawk. He pointed at Cuthbert "But remember your reflection, maggot And your fast. Tonight and tomorrow morning."
"Yes," Cuthbert said, stiltedly formal now. "Thank you for this instructive day."
"You learn," Cort said, "but your tongue has a bad habit of lolling from your stupid mouth when your instructor's back is turned. Mayhap the day will come when it and you will learn their respective places." He struck Cuthbert again, this time solidly between the eyes and hard enough so that Roland heard a dull thud �C the sound a mallet makes when a scullion taps a keg of beer. Cuthbert fell backward onto the lawn, his eyes cloudy and dazed at first. Then they cleared and he stared burningly up at Cort, his hatred unveiled, a pinprick as bright as the dove's blood in the center of each eye.
Cuthbert nodded and parted his lips in a scarifying smile that Roland had never seen.
"Then there's hope for you," Cort said. "When you think you can, you come for me, maggot."
"How did you know?" Cuthbert said between his teeth. Cort turned toward Roland so swiftly that Roland almost fell back a step �C and then both of them would have been on the grass, decorating the new green with their blood. "I saw it reflected in this maggot's eyes," he said. "Remember it, Cuthbert. Last lesson for today."
Cuthbert nodded again, the same frightening smile on his face. "I grieve," he said. "I have forgotten the face - "
"Cut that shit," Cort said, losing interest. He turned to Roland. "Go on, now. The both of you. If I have to look at your stupid maggot faces any longer I'll puke my guts."
"Come on," Roland said.
Cuthbert shook his head to clear it and got to his feet Cort was already walking down the hill in his squat, bowlegged stride, looking powerful and somehow prehistoric. The shaved and grizzled spot at the top of his head loomed at a slant, hunched.
"I'll kill the son of a bitch," Cuthbert said, still smiling. A large goose egg, purple and knotted, was rising mysti cally on his forehead.
"Not you or me," Roland said, suddenly bursting into a grin. "You can have supper in the west kitchen with me. Cook will give us some."
"He'll tell Cort."
"He's no friend of Cort's." Roland said, and then shrugged. "And what if he did?"
Cuthbert grinned back. "Sure. Right. I always wanted to know how the world looked when your head was on backwards and upside down."
They started back together over the green lawns, casting shadows in the fine white spring light.
The cook in the west kitchen was named Hax. He stood huge in food stained whites, a man with a crude-oil complexion whose ancestry was a quarter black, a quarter yellow, a quarter from the South Islands, now almost forgotten (the world had moved on), and a quarter God knew what He shuffled about three high-ceilinged steamy rooms like a tractor in low gear, wearing huge, Caliph-like slippers. He was one of those quite rare adults who communicate with small children fairly well and who love them all impartially �C not in a sugary way but in a businesslike fashion that may sometimes entail a hug, in the same way that closing a big business deal may call for a handshake. He even loved the boys who had begun The Training, although they were different from other children �C not always demonstrative and somehow dangerous, not in an adult way, but rather as if they were ordinary children with a slight touch of madness �C and Cuthbert was not the first of Cort's students whom he had fed on the sly. At this moment he stood in front of his huge, rambling electric stove
�C one of six working appliances left on the whole estate. It was his personal domain, and he stood there watching the two boys bolt the gravied meat scraps he had produced. Be-
hind, before, and all around, cookboys, scullions, and various underlings rushed through the foaming, humid air, rattling pans, stirring stew, slaving over potatoes and vegetables in nether regions. In the dimly lit pantry alcove, a washerwoman with a doughy, miserable face and hair caught up in a rag splashed water around on the floor with a mop.
One of the scullery boys rushed up with a man from the Guards in tow. "This man, he wantchoo, Hax."
"All right" Hax nodded to the Guard, and he nodded back. "You boys," he said. "Go over to Maggie, she'll give you some pie. Then scat"
They nodded and went over to Maggie, who gave them huge wedges of pie on dinner plates... but gingerly, as if they were wild dogs that might bite her.
"Let's eat it on the stairs," Cuthbert said.
"All right"
They sat behind a huge, sweating stone colonnade, out of sight of the kitchen, and gobbled their pie with their fingers. It was only moments later that they saw shadows fall on the far curving wall of the wide staircase. Roland grabbed Cuthbert's arm. "Come on," he said. "Someone's coming." Cuthbert looked up, his face surprised and berry-stained.
But the shadows stopped, still out of sight It was Hax and the man from the Guards. The boys sat where they were. If they moved now, they might be heard.
"... . the good man," the Guard was saying.
"In Farson?"
"In two weeks," the Guard replied. "Maybe three. You have to come with us. There's a shipment from the freight depot.... "A particularly loud crash of pots and pans and a volley of catcalls directed at the hapless potboy who had dropped them blotted out some of the rest; then the boys heard the Guard finish: ".. . poisoned meat"
"Risky."
"Ask not what the good man can do for you �C "the Guard began.
"�C but what you can do for him," Hax sighed. "Soldier, ask not"
"You know what it could mean," the Guard said quietly.
"Yes. And I know my responsibilities to him; you don't need to lecture me. I love him just as you do."
"All right The meat will be marked for short-term storage in your coldrooms. But you'll have to be quick. You must understand that."
"There are children in Farson?" The cook asked sadly. It was not really a question.
"Children everywhere," the Guard said gently. "It's the children we �C and he �C care about."
"Poisoned meat. Such a strange way to care for children." Hax uttered a heavy, whistling sigh. "Will they curdle and hold their bellies and cry for their mammas? I suppose they will."
"It will be like a going to sleep," the Guard said, but his voice was too confidently reasonable.
"Of course," Hax said, and laughed.
"You said it yourself. 'Soldier, ask not' Do you enjoy seeing children under the rule of the gun, when they could be under his hand who makes the lion lie down with the lamb?"
Hax did not reply.
"I go on duty in twenty minutes," the Guard said, his voice once more calm. "Give me a joint of mutton and I will pinch one of your girls and make her giggle. When I leave �C "My mutton will give no cramps to your belly, Robeson."
"Will you... "But the shadows moved away and the voices were lost.
I could have killed them, Roland thought, frozen and fascinated. I could have killed them both with my knife, slit their throats like hogs. He looked at his hands, now stained with gravy and berries as well as dirt from the day's lessons.
"Roland."
He looked at Cuthbert. They looked at each other for a long moment in the fragrant semidarkness, and a taste of warm despair rose in Roland's throat. What he felt might have been a sort of death �C something as brutal and final as the death of the dove in the white sky over the games field. Hax? He thought, bewildered. Hax who put a poultice on my leg that time? Hax? And then his mind snapped closed, cutting the subject off.
What he saw, even in Cuthbert's humorous, intelligent face, was nothing �C nothing at all. Cuthbert's eyes were flat with Hax's doom. In Cuthbert's eyes, it had already happened. He had fed them and they had gone to the stairs to eat and then Hax had brought the Guard named Robeson to the wrong corner of the kitchen for their treasonous little tete-a-tete. That was all. In Cuthbert's eyes Roland saw that Hax would die for his treason as a viper dies in a pit. That, and nothing else. Nothing at all.
They were gunslinger's eyes.
Roland's father was only just back from the uplands, and he looked out of place amid the drapes and the chiffon fripperies of the main receiving hall that the boy had only lately been granted access to, as a sign of his apprenticeship.
His father was dressed in black jeans and a blue work shirt. His cloak, dusty and streaked, torn to the lining in one place, was slung carelessly over his shoulder with no
regard for the way it and he clashed with the elegance of the room. He was desperately thin and the heavy handlebar mustache below his nose seemed to weight his head as he looked down at his son. The guns crisscrossed over the wings of his hips hung at the perfect angle for his hands, the worn sandalwood handles looking dull and sleepy in this languid indoor light
"The head cook," his father said softly. "Imagine it! The tracks that were blown upland at the railhead. The dead stock in Hendrickson. And perhaps even.., imagine! Im agine!"
He looked more closely at his son.
"It preys on you."
"Like the hawk," Roland said. "It preys on you." He laughed �C at the startling appropriateness of the image rather than at any lightness in the situation.
His father smiled.
"Yes," Roland said. "I guess it... it preys on me.
"Cuthbert was with you," his father said. "He will have told his father by now."
"Yes."
"He fed both of you when Cort �C "
"Yes."
"And Cuthbert. Does it prey on him, do you think?"
"I don't know." Such an avenue of comparison did not really interest him. He was not concerned with how his feelings compared with those of others.
"It preys on you because you feel you've killed?"
Roland shrugged unwillingly, all at once not content with this probing of his motivations.
"Yet you told. Why?"