First I should explain that I was eager to see whether I could make use of another inhuma to visit Sinew on Green. With Jahlee present, and as friendly as these creatures ever are, it seemed too good an opportunity to miss. Naturally I could not tell anyone else what I intended; I merely asked Sfido to bring our prisoners and our troopers, including Cuoio, to my room, saying that I wished to speak to everyone at once and that I was still too weak to leave my bed. It was quite true as such things are ordinarily judged, but what irony!
He brought them all, filling the room almost to bursting. I asked him to fetch the old woman then. He was surprised, but went for her. He had hardly left the room, however, when we heard the clatter of horses' hooves. Oreb flew to the window at once. "Girl come. Boy. Good girl!"
There was a knock at the front door a moment afterward, followed by Jahlee's hurrying footsteps. "We have company," the Duko remarked dryly, to which Hide added, "A man and a pretty big lady."
The Duko said, "You can't know that."
"She has a pretty deep voice. I never saw a little lady with a deep voice like that."
I had a presentiment then but kept it to myself.
Crowded though he was, Morello managed a bow. "I want to ask you something, Master Incanto. I've already asked this boy who was with you, but he won't tell me anything."
I warned him that I might not tell him anything either, and was applauded for it by Oreb: "Wise man!"
"On the night before we came here, the boy-"
"Cuoio," I said. "He has a name, General, and there's no reason why we shouldn't use it."
"Private Cuoio came back to the place where we were sleeping. Everyone was asleep except the sentry and me. He warned the sentry not to shoot, no matter what he saw, and tried to persuade him to take the cartridges out of his slug gun, which he would not do."
Rimo protested. "It's against regulations, sir."
I nodded. "I understand."
Morello said, "He challenged you and you told him who you were, and then he and Private Cuoio helped you drag the fourgoat. Who was it that Private Cuoio thought the sentry might shoot?"
"We didn't want him to shoot anyone," I said, "very much including me."
For the time being at least, I was saved by Jahlee, who looked in at that moment. "A nobleman and a noblewoman to see you. She says she's-"
"Inclito's daughter." I raised my voice. "Come in, Mora. Is that Eco with you?"
"Bird glad!" Oreb crowed.
They joined us, Mora in furs, boots, and trousers, and Eco gleaming with gems and wearing a big saber with a golden hilt under his greatcoat. Between the deference accorded her and the area required by his broad shoulders and long blade, they made the room unbearably crowded.
She waved a cheerful greeting. "I'm sorry, Incanto. We've interrupted something."
"No, not at all," I told her. "We haven't begun. I've been ill-"
"The woman outside told me."
"Jahlee." From what Mora had said and the way she had said it, I knew she thought Jahlee human.
"Jahlee said she'd been taking care of you, but I'm going to take care of you myself. Grandmother and I took care of Papa when he was sick. Besides, she looks like a whore." She had elbowed her way to my bedside by that time; she pressed her wrist to my forehead. "You're feverish. How do you feel?"
"Wonderful."
"You'd say that if you were dying."
She swung around as she spoke, and I saw that she wore a sword with a shorter, lighter blade than Eco's, as well as a needier.
"People!" She raised both hands as well as her voice. "Get out! All of you! I know you mean well, but you're making him worse. Outside, everyone!
Out !"
When we were alone except for Oreb, I said, "I wouldn't have thought you could do that."
She grinned. "Neither did I, but it was worth trying. Anyway, my husband would have chased them out for me if I couldn't."
"I didn't-I'm very happy for you. For you both, Mora. He's a nice young man, and a brave one. I'd ask you to give him my congratulations, but I'll do it myself in a minute or two."
"When you go on with your meeting, or whatever it was?"
I nodded.
"Then you're going to let him sit in? May I sit in, too? Only I'd like to talk to you for a minute first."
"And I would like to talk to you. I'm very anxious to, in fact, though it will be painful."
"You want to scold me. I know you must have been worried, and Papa worried half to death, and I'm sorry. Really and truly I am. Only I didn't think about it until later. All I thought about was-"
I raised my hand. "I know what you thought about, and I excoriated myself again and again. We were terribly worried, exactly as you say-and so proud of you we nearly burst, both of us, and went half mad trying to hide it from each other. No, I'm not going to scold you, Mora. That's your husband's task, if it is anyone's."
"You said it would be painful. Is Papa...?"
"Perfectly healthy, as far as I know, and at the head of his troops."
"Then let me go first. All right?" She found the spindly chair Sfido and I had sat in to pull off our boots, and sat down. "You're going to want to know a lot about where I went and what I did, so I'll say something about that before the other. You know I took the short messenger's horse? I forget his name."
"Yes. Rimando."
"That's it. I took it because I knew Papa's letter was in the saddlebag, and I didn't want to start changing tack. You always have to adjust something for the new horse, and sometimes it takes a while to find out. I wanted to die like a hero."
She smiled. "I kept thinking how I'd be wounded and I'd come galloping up to Novella Citta dripping blood and find out who was in charge and hand over Papa's letter and fall dead. Only it was the horse. Rimando's. They shot it and it died under me.
There were a few seconds there when I was riding a dead horse."
"They didn't hit you?"
"No. I had Papa's needier. Did they tell you?"
I shook my head.
"I did. I knew he slept with it under his pillow. I went in and got it without waking him up. Only I never used it. I thought I'd shoot a lot of them and they'd shoot me, and I'd ride through their ranks and off I'd go, but my horse was dead and I'd have been dead too. I held up my hands instead and I yelled don't shoot. I wasn't brave at all."
"You were sensible."
"I hope so. So they got me, and about an hour later they got Eco, too. They'd been watching the road, I think."
"Their Duko and General Morello are both here. You can ask them."
"Those men with their hands tied? I saw them. That's great!"
"We think so. They took you and Eco back to Soldo and imprisoned you there. Isn't that correct?"
She nodded. "They took Papa's needier and sent our letters to their Duko, that's what they said. And they locked Eco up in a cell with some other men. I got a cell of my own because I was the only woman there. Do you mind if I call myself a woman?"
"Why should I? You are a woman."
She nodded again, solemnly. "My tits are starting. Want to see?"
I shook my head.
"Mostly I was just in the cell at night. During the day they let me out to work. I scrubbed floors and emptied slops and a lot of other stuff I'd done before we got Onorifica. I could've gotten away from them pretty easily, but I wanted to get Eco out too, and it was a while before I could get hold of the keys."
I said, "That was very brave," and she blushed like the girl she had been.
"May I ask where you were married?"
"In Novella Citta. They had... You know. They did it to me when they caught me, and then they caught Eco, and then they did it again that night, four of them."
"I'm sorry, Mora. I'm deeply, terribly sorry."
She shrugged. "You know how it is when you get thrown? You jump right up if you can, and you jump right back on. Because if you don't, if you let yourself have time to think, you'll never be any good. So I kept thinking I've got to get back on, I've got to get back on. That was after the first time. Incanto, this isn't even what I came here to tell you about."
Oreb commiserated with her. "Poor girl!"
"I think it is very probable that this is more important than whatever matter you originally wished to confide to me."
"Yes, but I don't need advice about this. They caught him too, and he was so brave. When they did it to me again he called them names and tried to get loose, and they hit him with their slug guns. They hit me, too, but only with their hands."
"They will be found and punished. I realize that won't help you, but it may save someone else."
Mora nodded, although I do not believe she had been listening. "He was so nice while we were going to Soldo and then when he was locked up there; and I said to myself, that can't have been what Grandmother got married over and over again for, and I've got to get back on. I could imagine what it was like when it was love. They hated me. That wasn't love, what they did."
"No, it was not."
"So I stole food for him in the jail, and he kept telling me not to worry about him, to get away if I could. But I opened his cell, and we stole horses-only there was no way we could get Papa's letters back or his needier. We rode a lot slower the second time, being a lot more careful, and we got through and I told them I was our duko's daughter, and Eco said I was too. And I talked about how we were going to win. They knew they had to give us to the Duko fast or come in on our side, and that's what they did. They gave us cards and jewelry, and swords and needlers and new horses, so on the second night we sort of slipped away and found this place and got one of the holy patres there to marry us. I'm glad you're smiling."
"How could I not smile?"
"Papa's going to be mad because Eco's a foreigner, I think. Only I don't know. You never can tell about Papa."
I remarked that Torda was a foreigner as well.
"Not from Grandecitta, I mean. Only Grandecitta's a long, long way away now, up in the sky somewhere, and nobody will ever see it again. We were afraid the patre would ask us a lot of questions, and he did. Only not the stuff we were afraid he'd ask about, like how old are you and where's your father? He was afraid we didn't love each other and wouldn't stay together. We had to tell him over and over that we did and we would. And we will."
"Good girl!"
"So he married us with two other patres for witnesses, and everybody kissed the bride." She smiled. "That night wasn't like the other times at all, only when I went to sleep I dreamed about Fava."
I nodded. "Was it unpleasant?"
"No. It was nice. I was little again and we played with dolls and things like we used to, only she wasn't..."
"An inhuma."
"That's right. When I first met her, Incanto, I thought she was just a little girl like me, and in my dream that's what she was. I kept thinking how could I have been so wrong about her? The next night it was the same thing, and the night after that one. I don't mean we did the same things or said the same things, only it's been me and Fava playing every night. I have other dreams, too, but one is always playing with Fava. It's nice, I like the dreams, only I think something must be wrong."
"I believe that something must be right, Mora."
"You don't think it's dangerous some way?"
"I doubt it," I said. "Also, I envy you. I would like very much to be a small boy again in my dreams. I'd give a great deal for that, if I had a great deal to give." Which was nothing less than the truth.
She nodded thoughtfully.
"Do you want me to stop the dreams, Mora? I may be able to, if you wish it; but I warn you now that I won't be able to restore them, should you want them to return. If I try to stop them and succeed, they will be gone forever. Do you understand?"
She nodded again, her face solemn.
"Consider well, but you must make your decision quickly. I won't be here much longer." Seeing her expression, I added, "Oh, I'm not going to die, or at least the gods haven't told me that I am, and I've been talking with a goddess in my own dreams almost every time I sleep. I only mean that since the war's over or nearly over, I'm going home. I should also warn you that these dreams may cease sometime of their own accord."
She straightened up, squaring her shoulders. "If you don't think they're dangerous, I'm going to keep having them as long as I can."
"Good girl!"
"That's wise, I believe. You had a very short childhood, and you were eager to leave it behind you, I know. I'm happy to see that the Outsider, who is far wiser than either of us, has found a way to prolong it." I fell silent, fingering my beard.
Mora inquired, "What's the matter?"
"You liked Fava, didn't you? Even when you knew what she was."
Mora nodded. "She was the only friend I had. But even if I'd had dozens of others, I would have liked her the best."
"You will never see her again, outside dreams."
"She's dead? You didn't kill her, did you, Incanto?"
"No. I tried to save her life and failed."
"It-" Mora plunged her fingers into her short, dark hair. "This is so crazy. I was playing dolls with her last night."
I nodded.
"Was I really? Was it true?"
"I think so. It's the interior person that survives death, Mora. Fava was an inhuma, as we both know. We both know, also, that her interior person, her spirit, was not. When you yourself die-and we all die-you will be the interior person, and there will be no other. To put it a bit more accurately, that interior person will be the only you in existence."
"So I'd better make sure the interior person's somebody I can live with?"
"Exactly. I think you've done very well so far, but you've only begun. May I tell you a secret, Mora?"
