Her softness got to me in a way her derision had not. “I’m sorry,” I said backing away hastily. “I shouldn’t have wasted your time. I didn’t realize you couldn’t work the spell.”
“Not so fast, missy. Jilo never said she couldn’t work this spell you wantin’. She just say you don’t understand what it would take.”
“I said I can pay you,” I replied tersely.
“Lord help, girl. Jilo ain’t talkin’ about money. She talking about mojo.” She looked at me as if she were being asked to explain green to grass. “When people come to Jilo for a love spell, they come with a fire inside them. They burnin’ for the person they want, and Jilo use they fire to work the spell. You come to Jilo lovin’ the one man and wanting her to make you love another. They nothing but guilt in you. Guilt for lovin’ the one. Guilt for not lovin’ t’other. Jilo, she can use guilt for laying down revenge, but she sure can’t use it for love.”
“Then what would it take for you to work the spell for me?”
“Blood,” she spat at me. “It take blood!”
“I couldn’t let you hurt an animal for me,” I eyed the burlap guiltily.
“It take a lot more blood than the hen Jilo got in this croaker sack,” she responded.
“You could use my blood.” I just couldn’t carry on feeling the way I felt for Jackson, knowing how much Maisie loved him, and how devoted Peter was to me. Even if my feelings weren’t wrong, they were dangerous and destructive, and they were burning me up inside. I had to find a way to control them, not let them control me. If I could have found the strength in myself to do so, I wouldn’t be standing here offering my blood to Jilo, but I had no strength when it came to Jackson.
She shook her head again. “It take all the blood you got. And then the spell do you no good anyway.”
“I can’t hurt anyone,” I said, realizing my case was hopeless.
“Mercy. Folk like us, like you and Jilo. We want power, we got to be willing to sacrifice for it. You love your sister, right?”
“Yes, of course I do. That’s why I’m here,” I responded.
“Well Jilo loved her sister too. Jilo loved her more than anything in the whole wide world. And this crossroad where we standin’. This here where Jilo done buried her. Jilo cut her and buried her right here, right beneath your pretty little feet. Jilo buried her while she still breathing, so that her blood and spirit would spill into the ground. That why this crossroad and the power in it belong to Jilo.”
“I can’t do this. I can’t be here,” I said, my head starting to spin. My stomach lurched at the thought of being near this woman for even a moment longer.
“People like us, we gotta make a wound to draw from. If you ain’t willing to sacrifice, you ain’t never gonna know the power. Jilo get this much mojo from her sister, imagine what you could do with yo’ Maisie in the ground beneath yo’ feet.” She stopped and leered at me, licking the spittle from around her lips. “My sister, she about dry now. But that Maisie. You could draw off her forever.”
“I’m leaving now,” I said, more for my own benefit than hers. I was not like her, and I never would be. I started to walk away.
“Jilo gonna work that spell for you.”
I stopped and turned back toward her. “I changed my mind. I don’t want your help. Forget I came.”
“Too late,” she replied. “You done asked.”
“I won’t give you anything. I won’t pay you.”
“Jilo don’ care, little girl. She gonna do it, just ’cause she lookin’ forward to see how it gonna play out.”
I started walking again, forcing myself not to run. I prayed to God and all my ancestors that she was bluffing. Getting what I wanted, what I came to this crossroads for, would be a curse now, knowing now its source was rooted in murder.
“You give my best to Ginny,” she called out behind me, squawks of laughter mixing again with hacks of phlegm.
THREE
Great-Aunt Ginny summoned me shortly after sunrise, the message being passed on to me by Aunt Iris. Ginny dealt with me directly as little as possible, so I knew it spelled trouble. Sam mustn’t have fallen for my story. Or maybe he had believed me, but had gone to see Ginny anyway.
“I have no idea what this is about,” Iris said to me as she poured her husband Connor another cup of coffee. “But I suspect that you do.”
“Just what have you been up to, girl?” Connor asked, shifting his massive bulk on his chair. He gave me a steely glare from behind his towering stack of pancakes.
“I haven’t been up to anything,” I replied, pouring myself some juice. I did my best to look innocent and not think of Jilo.
“You might as well come clean now, darlin’,” Iris said, taking the pitcher from my hand. “Maybe then I can plead with Ginny on your behalf.”
“I don’t need you to plead for me,” I said, suddenly angry. “I am tired of Ginny and the way she thinks she can boss everyone in this family around. It’s about time someone stood up to her.”
Connor laughed and leaned back in his chair. “Well, we all wish you luck with that. But when she hands you your ass in a brown paper bag, don’t you come crying to me.”
“She wants you there by nine,” Iris said, shaking her head. “Do not be late.”
I wasn’t about to give them the satisfaction of hearing me slam the door, so I went out quietly. Ginny wanted to see me by 9:00. Fine. She’d obviously caught wind of my visit with Mother Jilo, even if she didn’t know the specifics of why I went. I had no doubt that she was furious, and that I was going to catch all seven shades of hell from her.
I had plenty of time, so I figured I would at least take the scenic path to my execution. I grabbed my bike from the garage and headed toward the river, in the exact opposite direction of Ginny’s house. I spun up to Columbia Square and stopped in front of the Davenport place. The house was one of Savannah’s many officially haunted locations, with one unique twist—the resident ghost was a cat. Ever since I was little, I had used this place as a barometer when I was worried about something. If things were going to turn out okay, I would always spot the spectral old tomcat staring out the window. If I didn’t see him…well, things were generally not going to go my way. I waited in the square for ten minutes watching the windows. “Here, kitty, kitty,” I called softly then decided to hell with it. Let Ginny bring on her worst. She had been trying to run my life for twenty years. Enough was enough. Today was going to be my independence day.
St. John’s bells carried over the sound of Savannah’s “rush hour,” and I counted eight peals. Out of nowhere the thought came to me that Peter would shortly be arriving at a site a little off Chatham Square, where he and his crew were renovating an apartment building. I had to see him. I had to know if Jilo had held true to her promise, a promise that had felt more like a threat. I hated myself for having gone to her, and my one consolation about the chewing out that Ginny undoubtedly had in store for me was that she’d be able to heavily curtail, if not completely disable, any magic Jilo had sent my way.
Before I even registered what I was doing, I was back on my bike, heading toward Peter’s work site, which was just past Aunt Ginny’s house. I zigzagged to Taylor Street, passing Calhoun Square and then Monterey Square, where a group of retirees were busy snapping photos of Mercer House. I made a wide berth of Ginny’s house, because I certainly didn’t want the old biddy to spot me on my bike if she was out on her morning walk. I didn’t want to be berated out in the open for any and all to see. And more important, I didn’t want anything to keep me from seeing Peter. I had to know if Jilo had worked her spell.