“You have a wonderful family, Christy,” Father Tim says, appropos of nothing.
“Thanks.”
“I hope that you and Maggie…well. Never mind.”
Desperate to somehow set Father Tim straight regarding my own feelings while not blowing my cover, I swallow convulsively. “You…you’re a, um, a good friend to Maggie. It’s nice for her to have a friend who’s a priest. Very comforting. And she, you know, values your friendship.”
“I’m counting on that,” he says, smiling and rising. “She’s very special.”
Oh, my dear God. He’s counting on that. I’m special. Shit! My pulse zings through my veins, my heart pounds. What does that mean? Why would he be counting on my friendship? And why is he so interested to know if I’ve?Christy’s?heard something about him leaving?
“Well, okay, Father Tim, thank you so much for everything. I really should get back to the baby. Thanks. This was so helpful.”
Father Tim’s face is puzzled. “Glad to be of service, Christy,” he says. He stands aside as I practically leap out of the room, nearly colliding with Mrs. Plutarski, who is too close to the door for any purpose other than eavesdropping.
“So nice to see you, Christy,” she says, pretending to pick up a piece of paper already in her hand.
“It certainly is. Take care,” I say distantly, grabbing my coat. I need some air. My head is buzzing and my hearing seems to be off, and I need to get outside and away from the rectory.
I burst into the slush, sliding and nearly falling on the sidewalk, then slip over to Christy’s car, taking great gulps of air. Where did I put the keys? Where are the damn keys? I check the diaper bag and can’t find them. Father Shea! How many compartments does this thing have? Diapers here, wipes there, changing pad, pacifier, teething ring, Goodnight Moon, a stuffed dog, a sterilized bottle in a sealed plastic bag, some emergency formula, but no goddamn keys.
And then, around the corner comes Malone.
“Shit!” I hiss. I can’t believe the crap luck. Where are the f**king keys? Fifteen more feet and I’ll have to talk to him.
“Maggie?” he says cautiously.
Without thinking, I turn and walk away from the Volvo and away from Malone as fast as I dare in the slushy mess on the sidewalk. Jerking open the door of the CVS pharmacy, I hustle inside, looking for a place to hide until he passes. I stop in front of the tobacco display, which hides me from the front door, and pretend to look at pipes. I’m sweating bullets.
“Hi, Mrs. Jones,” calls a teenager from behind the counter. The Bates girl…what’s her name? Susie? Katie? Bessie? Shit, I can’t remember.
“Hello, honey!” I call a little too loudly.
The bell over the door rings, and Malone comes in. I scamper further down the aisle, then take a left. Ha! Here, I’ll go here. I try to stop panting and run a hand through my hair. I’m shaking, but I should be safe. He wouldn’t dare follow me here.
He dares. “Maggie?” His voice is low and grumbling and vaguely menacing.
I stretch my mouth into an approximation of a smile and turn to him. “Oh, hello, Malone. It’s actually Christy. Don’t worry, happens all the time.” Shimmers of heat are rolling off my face. I snatch a box of tampons from the shelf and study it hard. Extra absorbent for your heaviest days. That should scare off any male.
Malone doesn’t move. I shove the box back and grab some pads large enough to serve as dog beds.
“Why are you pretending to be Christy?” he growls.
I steal a glance at him. He’s scowling, of course, and his hair is rumpled from the wind. He hasn’t shaved today, and he’s so ridiculously male that even here, even knowing what I know, my knees soften in a biological rush of attraction.
“Hi, Christy!” calls a red-haired woman I’ve never seen. She has a baby on her hip.
“Hello!” I call back, waving. “How’s the baby?”
Malone folds his arms over his chest and narrows his eyes.
“A little fussy. Teething, I think. Your husband said I could try Motrin if it gets worse.”
“Oh, yes. Motrin. That will do the trick. Mmm-hmm. Will knows these things. Definitely try the Motrin. Works for Violet.” I shove the pads back on the shelf and go for the big guns?yeast infection treatments. I shake the box for emphasis, hearing the applicator rattle.
“Maggie,” Malone rumbles. “What are you doing?”
“It’s Christy, okay? You made a mistake. Even our parents mix us up. Now, I really need to concentrate because I have a raging yeast infection, okay? So goodbye.”
He leans in close enough that I can feel the warmth of his body, and suddenly the box is shaking in my hands. Do not look at him, I warn myself. Do not even turn your head.
“I know who you are,” Malone whispers. Then he turns and walks away. I hear the bell over the door tinkle, and he’s gone.
“DON’T BE MAD at me,” I tell my sister as I hang up her coat.
“Did you dent the car?” she asks, taking a sip of tea. The baby monitor is on, the house warm and quiet, an oasis of calm.
“I pretended to be you,” I admit, bracing myself.
“What? Maggie! Come on!” she exclaims.
“Hey, quiet now, you’ll wake the baby,” I say, grateful that there’s a sleeping child to protect me from her wrath.
“Aren’t we a little old to be switching?” Christy grumbles. “And what the hell for, anyway?”
“Is the water hot? I could use a cup,” I say.
“Help yourself,” Christy says, putting aside her crossword puzzle. “You got some ’splainin’ to do.”
“Yeah, okay. First of all, I’m sorry,” I say. “I had just decided not to do it when Father Tim busted me. It was a bad idea. But you’re not going to believe this.” I spoon some sugar into my tea and sit down across from her. “I think Father Tim is leaving the priesthood.”
“Oh, no!” My sister nearly falls out of her chair.
I tell her about my sophomoric routine and Father Tim’s mysterious words, not to mention the Father Shea situation.
“So did he actually say anything concrete?” my sister asks, abandoning her irritation with me in the wake of the more shocking news.
“Well, no,” I acknowledge. “But he’s already said a couple of times that he’s lonely…and then things like how special I am and that he’s counting on me. And the Father Shea thing…. You have to admit, that sounds…you know.”
“Promising?” Christy suggests.
“No! I was going to say scary, actually.”
“Yeah,” she agrees, tracing the grain of wood on the table. “Imagine the scandal, Maggie, if he left the priesthood for you.”
“I know.”
“Do you love him, Mags?” She winces as she says it. “No! Oh, shit, I don’t know, Christy. I mean, sure, I love Father Tim. Who doesn’t, right? And we really are great friends. I’ve always felt like there was some bond between us….”
“But?” she prompts.
“But…not that way. A crush is one thing, you know, but my God, no!” My sister nods. “Besides,” I admit in a quieter voice, “I still have some…feelings. For Malone.”
“Hmm.”
“Not that that matters, right? Because of Chantal and all. I should just forget him. Malone was a fling, that’s all. A pretty good fling, but there was nothing really…no real….”
Except there was something, and the truth brings tears to my eyes. He held my hand, took me to that hokey little lumberjack competition, comforted me, cheered me, made me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world, and I?
“I miss him,” I acknowledge in a whisper.
Christy nods.
“He was at CVS,” I say. “He knew I wasn’t you.”
Her eyebrows pop up. “Wow.”
“I know.”
We have fooled everyone at one point or another?our parents, our brother, our teachers, our closest friends. Only Will has never once confused us.
And now Malone.
CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
“MAGGOT, you think you could run lunch down to Dad and me at the dock? We’re overhauling the engine on the Menace and we’re a mess.”
“Sure, baby boy,” I tell my brother. I’ve been at the diner since six this morning, and now, at nearly two, the place is empty. I could use the fresh air.
Today’s special was lobster bisque, and there’s just enough left over from the two giant vats I made this morning for Dad and Jonah. I throw together a couple of ham and cheese sandwiches on pumpernickel and fix two coffees the way my menfolk like them. A few coconut macaroons, plus one for me, and I bag everything up and set out to the dock.
The sun is blindingly bright today, and it’s still cold enough that the snow has stayed on the ground. I walk carefully down the gangplank, clutching the boys’ lunch to my chest, watching my feet so I don’t take a header (wouldn’t be the first time). I’m surprised to see my dad standing in a group of four or five men, who are apparently supervising Jonah?that is to say, they’re slouching helpfully at the base of the gangplank, gossiping while a banging noise comes from my brother’s boat.
“Hi, Dad,” I call. “Hi, guys.”
“Hello, sweetheart,” Dad says, giving me a one-armed hug. “How’s my girl? Need a hand? Isn’t she pretty, boys? My little girl, all grown up.”
I blink as the boys murmur assent. “Well. Thanks, Dad. Aren’t you…jovial.” I smile up at my dad. “Where do you want to eat?”
“Oh, I guess you can bring it to the captain, honey. Thanks.”
“Your father nearly lost his finger today,” Sam comments. The men guffaw as my father raises his hand and wiggles his fingers at me. “First thing you gotta learn, there, Mitch! Those mothers clamp down pretty goddamn hard!”
Apparently, this is hilarious, because the men all bark with laughter, Dad right along with them.
Bemused, I walk down the dock to the Menace. Seeing Dad out with the boys…it’s different. “Jonah, lunch is here,” I call as I step carefully onto the boat.
The door of the hold opens, and Malone comes out. My heart lurches, then sinks.
He’s wearing his black peacoat and a scowl, wiping his hands on a rag. “Maggie,” he grunts.
“Malone,” I grunt back, instantly irritated. “Excuse me.”
He doesn’t step aside, just stares at me, looking both angry and…well, no, just angry.
“What? What do you want? Huh, Malone?” I snap.
“Hey, Mags, do you have enough for Malone, too?” Jonah sticks his head out of the hold. “He’s giving us a hand.” His head pops back in and he resumes banging.
“No, I don’t have anything for you,” I mutter, staring at Malone.
“You sure about that?” he asks, eyes narrowing.
“I?you?” My mouth works a minute before I force it closed. “Have a lovely day.”
“Maggie,” Malone says.
“What, Malone?” I ask, and I’m suddenly desperate for him to say something that would make everything the way it was, that would erase him and Chantal and whatever they did together, and the intensity of that longing makes my chest ache.
“Forget it,” Malone says, and he turns his back on me.
“MAGGIE, I really need to see you.” Chantal’s voice is grim, and I wish I hadn’t snatched up the phone. Of course, I’m at Joe’s, and I don’t exactly screen calls here. “I know you’ve been busy, but I have to talk to you.”
I heave a sigh that could propel a sailboat to Deer Isle. “Yeah. Fine.” I glance around the diner, which is sparkling clean at the moment. Six pies are in the oven for tomorrow, lunchtime is over, and despite my best efforts, I’ve run out of excuses. “Well, I’m free tonight.”