She rinsed the soap from her hair and skin. Maybe Mal had her, too. If so, Chrysabelle might be off the hook for giving him blood. In fact, if Saraphina stayed with him, Mal wouldn’t need Chrysabelle’s blood at all.
The bittersweetness of that thought brought an unexpected ache to her soul. She leaned her head against the slick marble wall, closed her eyes, and let the water beat down onto her.
Holy mother. Maybe Velimai was right. Maybe she did need him. She shook herself and shoved those thoughts away. There was too much to deal with right now to worry about something as insignificant as feelings. Like finding her brother.
Nothing pressed on her so much as finding him and fulfilling her mother’s wish. After everything Maris had done for her, getting her brother home was the least Chrysabelle could do. To know that she had family, real family—not just the preordained brothers, sisters, aunts, and uncles of the comarré life—made her long to know him with a yearning that sprang from her soul. She would find him. No matter what it took.
An hour later, she walked up the gangway to Mal’s abandoned freighter, wearing both sacres, a pair of wrist blades, and a new attitude. She would not let Mal upset her. If he wanted to talk about what had happened at Atticus’s, she would politely steer the conversation in a new direction until such time as she felt comfortable dealing with whatever Mal thought was going on.
The ship, as always, was dark and deserted, lit only by the weak solars that dotted the never-ending labyrinth of passageways. “Mal? It’s Chrysabelle.” As if he wouldn’t know.
She had a general idea of which way to go. Her heightened sense of smell helped a bit, too. Mal’s dark spice pervaded the ship’s space, but it was stronger in some directions than others. She followed the path she remembered in her head, taking a flight of stairs that seemed familiar and taking a turn that looked right, passing corridors and doors that, one after another, seemed to blend together.
Frustration building, she called for him again. “Mal! Hello? Anyone?”
A shimmering image burst through the wall ahead of her and turned into Fi. “Hey. What are you doing here?”
“Fi, I’m so glad someone’s here. I’m trying to find Mal. I think I got a little turned around.”
The ghost girl frowned. “Last I saw him, he was at your house. Did he leave without telling you?”
Chrysabelle sighed. “I may have thrown him out.”
Fi’s face was blank for a moment, then she laughed. The laughter faded fast. “Men suck.”
Chrysabelle’s brows lifted. “Something going on with you and Doc?”
“I take it Mal hasn’t filled you in on what’s been going on?”
“No.” Not that she’d given him a chance.
“Walk with me to the galley.” Fi’s feet hit the floor a second after she became corporeal. She turned down the closest corridor. “Long story, but the short version is he’s the new Paradise City pride leader, and that job comes with a wife.”
Chrysabelle easily matched the shorter girl’s stride. “And you don’t want to fill the position?” She’d thought the varcolai and Fi were crazy about each other, but maybe she’d been wrong.
Fi shook her head. “The position’s already been filled by the previous leader’s wife. When Doc killed Sinjin—who was the one killing off Dominic’s comarrés, in case you hadn’t heard…”
“I hadn’t. Go on.”
“Anyway, when Doc killed him, he inherited everything that had been Sinjin’s. Including the guy’s wife.”
“What?” Chrysabelle stared in disbelief. “That’s rather archaic.”
“That’s pride law. The same set of rules that kicked Doc out of the pride have now put him in charge of it.”
“Wow.” Chrysabelle took a moment to process. What else had happened in the last few days that she didn’t know about?
“Wow is right. Freaking sucks is more like it.” Emotion thickened Fi’s voice. “Where does that leave me?”
“Well, you still love him, right?”
“Yes.”
“And he still loves you, right?”
“I suppose.”
“Fi, come on.”
She blew out a long, hard breath. “Yes, he still loves me.”
“So why can’t you and Doc just explain things to this woman? I’m sure she’ll understand. She probably doesn’t want to be married to Doc any more than you want her to be.”
“Hmph. I wouldn’t count on that. Pride marriages among the ruling class are pretty old school from what Doc’s explained to me. Sinjin didn’t marry for love. He married for alliance. This woman’s father is the leader of one of the biggest prides in existence. Riling her up would be a very bad thing.”
Chrysabelle looped her arm around Fi’s shoulders. “There has to be a way to work this out.”
Fi shrugged, conveying about as much positive energy as a burned out match. “Whatever.” She glanced up at Chrysabelle. “So what’s going on with you? Doc and I came by to see you, but you were out cold and Mal didn’t want to hear about anything. All he could do was focus on you. He’s into you pretty hard. Like you don’t know that.” Suddenly her face brightened. “Did he tell you how he feels? Is that why you kicked him out?”
“No, that’s not why. I kicked him out because he wanted to talk about something I didn’t. But now I know he was probably right, even if his timing sucked.”