I could imagine how I’d style my hair with it. I even knew what jewelry would look best.
As I looked at it, though, I knew this gown was more suited for a starlet than a princess. In my eyes, it was gorgeous without end, but I worried about other people’s opinions. More than any other season of my life, they really mattered now.
“Oh, miss!” Neena said, catching a glimpse of the drawing in passing.
“You like it?”
“It’s the most glamorous thing I’ve ever seen.”
I stared at the gown. “Do you think I could get away with wearing this on the Report?”
She made a face as if I should already know. “You’re basically covered from head to toe, and as long as you don’t plan on coating it in rhinestones, I don’t see why not.”
I petted the paper like I could almost really touch it.
“Should I get started?” Neena asked, a hint of excitement in her voice.
“Actually, could you take me down to the workroom? I think I’d like to help make this one. I want it for tonight.”
“I’d be thrilled,” Neena said. I grabbed my book and followed her into the hallway, more excited than I’d ever been.
It was worth the marathon of cutting and sewing when I walked in for the Report and the first thing I saw was the out-and-out envy in Josie’s eyes. I’d worn a pair of golden heels and curled my hair so it fell loosely over my shoulders, and it was possibly the most beautiful I’d ever felt. The blatant stares from the Selected only confirmed I was particularly lovely tonight, and I was so bewildered, I had to turn my back on them to suppress my grin.
It was then that I felt something was off. There was a pang of tension that seemed to be floating through the room, and it was far more powerful than the pride over my dress or the sense of admiration coming from the boys. It was so weighty, it nearly gave me a chill.
I looked around, searching for a clue. Mom and Dad were in a corner, trying to be discreet. I could tell by Dad’s tensed brow and Mom’s gestures that something was wrong. What I wasn’t sure of was if I could go talk to them. Was a few days of silence enough?
“Hey!” Baden had snuck up on me.
“Hi.”
“Did I startle you?”
I focused politely. “No, I’m fine. A little lost in thought. Do you need something?”
“Well, I was wondering if I could invite you out for dinner or something this week? Maybe another jam session?” He strummed an invisible guitar, biting his smiling lip.
“That’s sweet, but traditionally, I’m supposed to do the asking.”
He shrugged. “So? Didn’t that cooking thing happen because those guys invited you?”
I squinted, trying to remember. “Maybe technically.”
“So, since I didn’t grow up in the palace, I can’t ask, but Kile can?”
“I assure you, Kile has less of an advantage than you’d imagine,” I answered with a laugh, thinking of all the years of frustration.
Baden stood there, silent and unbelieving. “Sure.”
I was completely shocked when he walked away, hands in his pocket and footsteps steady. Had I done something rude? I was being honest. And I hadn’t actually turned him down.
I tried to shake off the snub, focusing on my duty for the evening: being charming and gracious, and trying to convince everyone that I was falling in love.
Dad passed me, and I gently grabbed his arm. “What’s wrong?”
He shook his head and patted my hand. “Nothing, darling.”
The lie shook me more than Baden’s dismissal. People whirred around the room, giving commands and checking notes. I heard Josie laugh, and someone shush her immediately after. The boys talked to one another, all a little too loud to be considered appropriate. Baden was sulking next to Henri, ignoring everyone, and I pressed my hands to my stomach, calming myself.
Next to Henri, just offstage in the dark, I saw a waving hand. It was Erik, standing on the sideline, waiting to take his hidden seat. Once he had my attention, he gave me a thumbs-up, but the expression on his face let me know it was a question. I shrugged. He pressed his lips together, then mouthed the word sorry. I gave him a tight smile and a thumbs-up back, which wasn’t quite right but was the only thing I could do. Erik shook his head at me, and I was strangely comforted. At least someone seemed to understand how I was feeling.
Taking a deep breath, I went over to sit between Mom and Ahren.
“Something’s wrong,” I whispered to him.
“I know.”
“Do you know what it is?”
“Yes.”
“Will you tell me?”
“Later.”
I sighed. How was I supposed to perform with worry hanging over my head?
The updates were dispensed, and Daddy spoke briefly, though I couldn’t concentrate on anything he was saying. All I could see were the lines of stress around his eyes, the way his shoulders wore the strain of whatever was troubling him.
Partway through, Gavril stepped toward the middle of the set and announced that he had a few questions for the Selected, and I watched them all straighten their ties or cuffs and move into more assertive stances in their chairs.
“So, let’s see . . . Sir Ivan?” On the near side of the first row, Ivan raised his hand, and Gavril faced him.
“How are you enjoying the Selection so far?”
He chuckled. “I’d be enjoying it more if I could manage to get to see the princess one-on-one.” Ivan winked at me, and I felt my face set on fire.
“I imagine the princess has a hard time getting to everyone,” Gavril said graciously.
“For sure! I’m not complaining, just being hopeful,” he added, still chortling like this was all a joke.
“Well, maybe you can press Her Royal Highness tonight and sway her into making time for you. Tell us: what do you think the most important job of a future prince would be?”
Ivan’s laughing stopped. “I don’t know. I think just being good company is important. Princess Eadlyn is forced into lots of relationships for work, and I think it would be nice to be one of the people she always wanted to be around. Just for, you know, fun.”
I tried not to roll my eyes. You are a forced relationship, honey.
“Interesting,” Gavril commented. “What about you, Sir Gunner?”
Gunner was a bit on the short side, and he looked almost petite sitting beside the gangly Ivan. He tried to straighten himself, but it was no use.
“I think any future prince should be prepared to be available. You’ve already mentioned the princess’s busy schedule, so anyone in her life should try to put himself in a position to be helpful. Of course, I don’t know what that looks like yet, but it’s important to think of how your life and priorities might change.”