The Awakening of Helena Richie - Page 163/229

"Go and ask him."

Simmons went, and came back triumphantly. "I tole him. He didn't say

nothin'. So it's all right"

The visitor went ponderously up-stairs. On the first landing he caught

his breath, and stood still.

Directly opposite him, across the window of the upper hall was a

horsehair-covered sofa, with great, shiny, slippery mahogany ends.

Samuel Wright put his hand up to his throat as if he were

smothering.... He used to lie on that sofa on hot afternoons and study

his declensions. It had no springs; he felt the hardness of it in his

bones, now, and the scratch of the horsehair on his cheek. Instantly

words, forgotten for a generation, leaped up: Stella Stellae Stellae Stellam-Mechanically his eyes turned to the side wall; an old secretary stood

there, its glass doors curtained within by faded red rep. He had kept

his fishing-tackle in its old cupboard; the book of flies was in a

green box on the second shelf, at the left. Samuel looked at those

curtained doors, and at the shabby case of drawers below them where

the veneer had peeled and blistered under the hot sun of long

afternoons, and the sudden surge of youth into his dry, middle-aged

mind, was suffocating. Something not himself impelled him on up the

half-flight from the landing, each step creaking under his heavy

tread; drew him across the hall, laid his hand on the door of the

secretary.... Yes; there they were: the green pasteboard box, the

flannel book to hold the flies. He put out his hand stealthily and

lifted the book;--rust and moth-eaten rags.

The shock of that crumbling touch and the smell of dust made him gasp-

and instantly he was back again in middle age. He shut the secretary

quietly, and looked around him. On the right side of the hall was a

closed door. His door. The door out of which he had rushed that

windy March night thirty-two years ago. How hot with passion he had

been then! How cold he was now. On the other side of the hall a door

was ajar; behind it was his father. He looked at it with sombre

indifferent eyes; then pushed it open and entered. He saw a little

figure, sunk in the heap of pillows on the big bed; a little shrunken

figure, without a wig, frightened-eyed, and mumbling. Samuel Wright

came forward with the confidence of apathy. As he stood at the foot of

the bed, dully looking down, the thick tongue broke into a whimpering

stammer: "M-m-my f--"

And at that, something seemed to melt in the poor locked heart of the

son.