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Anselmo went, and the next day Lothario came to his house, where he was

received by Camilla with a friendly and modest welcome; but she never

suffered Lothario to see her alone, for she was always attended by her

men and women servants, especially by a handmaid of hers, Leonela by

name, to whom she was much attached (for they had been brought up

together from childhood in her father's house), and whom she had kept

with her after her marriage with Anselmo. The first three days Lothario

did not speak to her, though he might have done so when they removed the

cloth and the servants retired to dine hastily; for such were Camilla's

orders; nay more, Leonela had directions to dine earlier than Camilla and

never to leave her side. She, however, having her thoughts fixed upon

other things more to her taste, and wanting that time and opportunity for

her own pleasures, did not always obey her mistress's commands, but on

the contrary left them alone, as if they had ordered her to do so; but

the modest bearing of Camilla, the calmness of her countenance, the

composure of her aspect were enough to bridle the tongue of Lothario. But

the influence which the many virtues of Camilla exerted in imposing

silence on Lothario's tongue proved mischievous for both of them, for if

his tongue was silent his thoughts were busy, and could dwell at leisure

upon the perfections of Camilla's goodness and beauty one by one, charms

enough to warm with love a marble statue, not to say a heart of flesh.

Lothario gazed upon her when he might have been speaking to her, and

thought how worthy of being loved she was; and thus reflection began

little by little to assail his allegiance to Anselmo, and a thousand

times he thought of withdrawing from the city and going where Anselmo

should never see him nor he see Camilla. But already the delight he found

in gazing on her interposed and held him fast. He put a constraint upon

himself, and struggled to repel and repress the pleasure he found in

contemplating Camilla; when alone he blamed himself for his weakness,

called himself a bad friend, nay a bad Christian; then he argued the

matter and compared himself with Anselmo; always coming to the conclusion

that the folly and rashness of Anselmo had been worse than his

faithlessness, and that if he could excuse his intentions as easily

before God as with man, he had no reason to fear any punishment for his

offence.

In short the beauty and goodness of Camilla, joined with the opportunity

which the blind husband had placed in his hands, overthrew the loyalty of

Lothario; and giving heed to nothing save the object towards which his

inclinations led him, after Anselmo had been three days absent, during

which he had been carrying on a continual struggle with his passion, he

began to make love to Camilla with so much vehemence and warmth of

language that she was overwhelmed with amazement, and could only rise

from her place and retire to her room without answering him a word. But

the hope which always springs up with love was not weakened in Lothario

by this repelling demeanour; on the contrary his passion for Camilla

increased, and she discovering in him what she had never expected, knew

not what to do; and considering it neither safe nor right to give him the

chance or opportunity of speaking to her again, she resolved to send, as

she did that very night, one of her servants with a letter to Anselmo, in

which she addressed the following words to him.