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For the first time since Dorothea had known him, Mr. Casaubon's face

had a quick angry flush upon it.

"My love," he said, with irritation reined in by propriety, "you may

rely upon me for knowing the times and the seasons, adapted to the

different stages of a work which is not to be measured by the facile

conjectures of ignorant onlookers. It had been easy for me to gain a

temporary effect by a mirage of baseless opinion; but it is ever the

trial of the scrupulous explorer to be saluted with the impatient scorn

of chatterers who attempt only the smallest achievements, being indeed

equipped for no other. And it were well if all such could be

admonished to discriminate judgments of which the true subject-matter

lies entirely beyond their reach, from those of which the elements may

be compassed by a narrow and superficial survey."

This speech was delivered with an energy and readiness quite unusual

with Mr. Casaubon. It was not indeed entirely an improvisation, but

had taken shape in inward colloquy, and rushed out like the round

grains from a fruit when sudden heat cracks it. Dorothea was not only

his wife: she was a personification of that shallow world which

surrounds the appreciated or desponding author.

Dorothea was indignant in her turn. Had she not been repressing

everything in herself except the desire to enter into some fellowship

with her husband's chief interests?

"My judgment _was_ a very superficial one--such as I am capable of

forming," she answered, with a prompt resentment, that needed no

rehearsal. "You showed me the rows of notebooks--you have often spoken

of them--you have often said that they wanted digesting. But I never

heard you speak of the writing that is to be published. Those were

very simple facts, and my judgment went no farther. I only begged you

to let me be of some good to you."

Dorothea rose to leave the table and Mr. Casaubon made no reply, taking

up a letter which lay beside him as if to reperuse it. Both were

shocked at their mutual situation--that each should have betrayed anger

towards the other. If they had been at home, settled at Lowick in

ordinary life among their neighbors, the clash would have been less

embarrassing: but on a wedding journey, the express object of which is

to isolate two people on the ground that they are all the world to each

other, the sense of disagreement is, to say the least, confounding and

stultifying. To have changed your longitude extensively and placed

yourselves in a moral solitude in order to have small explosions, to

find conversation difficult and to hand a glass of water without

looking, can hardly be regarded as satisfactory fulfilment even to the

toughest minds. To Dorothea's inexperienced sensitiveness, it seemed

like a catastrophe, changing all prospects; and to Mr. Casaubon it was

a new pain, he never having been on a wedding journey before, or found

himself in that close union which was more of a subjection than he had

been able to imagine, since this charming young bride not only obliged

him to much consideration on her behalf (which he had sedulously

given), but turned out to be capable of agitating him cruelly just

where he most needed soothing. Instead of getting a soft fence against

the cold, shadowy, unapplausive audience of his life, had he only given

it a more substantial presence?