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Neither of them felt it possible to speak again at present. To have

reversed a previous arrangement and declined to go out would have been

a show of persistent anger which Dorothea's conscience shrank from,

seeing that she already began to feel herself guilty. However just her

indignation might be, her ideal was not to claim justice, but to give

tenderness. So when the carriage came to the door, she drove with Mr.

Casaubon to the Vatican, walked with him through the stony avenue of

inscriptions, and when she parted with him at the entrance to the

Library, went on through the Museum out of mere listlessness as to what

was around her. She had not spirit to turn round and say that she

would drive anywhere. It was when Mr. Casaubon was quitting her that

Naumann had first seen her, and he had entered the long gallery of

sculpture at the same time with her; but here Naumann had to await

Ladislaw with whom he was to settle a bet of champagne about an

enigmatical mediaeval-looking figure there. After they had examined

the figure, and had walked on finishing their dispute, they had parted,

Ladislaw lingering behind while Naumann had gone into the Hall of

Statues where he again saw Dorothea, and saw her in that brooding

abstraction which made her pose remarkable. She did not really see the

streak of sunlight on the floor more than she saw the statues: she was

inwardly seeing the light of years to come in her own home and over the

English fields and elms and hedge-bordered highroads; and feeling that

the way in which they might be filled with joyful devotedness was not

so clear to her as it had been. But in Dorothea's mind there was a

current into which all thought and feeling were apt sooner or later to

flow--the reaching forward of the whole consciousness towards the

fullest truth, the least partial good. There was clearly something

better than anger and despondency.