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"Few men besides you would think it a duty to add to their anxieties in

that way, Caleb."

"That signifies nothing--what other men would think. I've got a clear

feeling inside me, and that I shall follow; and I hope your heart will

go with me, Susan, in making everything as light as can be to Mary,

poor child."

Caleb, leaning back in his chair, looked with anxious appeal towards

his wife. She rose and kissed him, saying, "God bless you, Caleb! Our

children have a good father."

But she went out and had a hearty cry to make up for the suppression of

her words. She felt sure that her husband's conduct would be

misunderstood, and about Fred she was rational and unhopeful. Which

would turn out to have the more foresight in it--her rationality or

Caleb's ardent generosity?

When Fred went to the office the next morning, there was a test to be

gone through which he was not prepared for.

"Now Fred," said Caleb, "you will have some desk-work. I have always

done a good deal of writing myself, but I can't do without help, and as

I want you to understand the accounts and get the values into your

head, I mean to do without another clerk. So you must buckle to. How

are you at writing and arithmetic?"

Fred felt an awkward movement of the heart; he had not thought of

desk-work; but he was in a resolute mood, and not going to shrink.

"I'm not afraid of arithmetic, Mr. Garth: it always came easily to me.

I think you know my writing."

"Let us see," said Caleb, taking up a pen, examining it carefully and

handing it, well dipped, to Fred with a sheet of ruled paper. "Copy me

a line or two of that valuation, with the figures at the end."

At that time the opinion existed that it was beneath a gentleman to

write legibly, or with a hand in the least suitable to a clerk. Fred

wrote the lines demanded in a hand as gentlemanly as that of any

viscount or bishop of the day: the vowels were all alike and the

consonants only distinguishable as turning up or down, the strokes had

a blotted solidity and the letters disdained to keep the line--in

short, it was a manuscript of that venerable kind easy to interpret

when you know beforehand what the writer means.

As Caleb looked on, his visage showed a growing depression, but when

Fred handed him the paper he gave something like a snarl, and rapped

the paper passionately with the back of his hand. Bad work like this

dispelled all Caleb's mildness.