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"The deuce!" he exclaimed, snarlingly. "To think that this is a

country where a man's education may cost hundreds and hundreds, and it

turns you out this!" Then in a more pathetic tone, pushing up his

spectacles and looking at the unfortunate scribe, "The Lord have mercy

on us, Fred, I can't put up with this!"

"What can I do, Mr. Garth?" said Fred, whose spirits had sunk very low,

not only at the estimate of his handwriting, but at the vision of

himself as liable to be ranked with office clerks.

"Do? Why, you must learn to form your letters and keep the line.

What's the use of writing at all if nobody can understand it?" asked

Caleb, energetically, quite preoccupied with the bad quality of the

work. "Is there so little business in the world that you must be

sending puzzles over the country? But that's the way people are

brought up. I should lose no end of time with the letters some people

send me, if Susan did not make them out for me. It's disgusting." Here

Caleb tossed the paper from him.

Any stranger peeping into the office at that moment might have wondered

what was the drama between the indignant man of business, and the

fine-looking young fellow whose blond complexion was getting rather

patchy as he bit his lip with mortification. Fred was struggling with

many thoughts. Mr. Garth had been so kind and encouraging at the

beginning of their interview, that gratitude and hopefulness had been

at a high pitch, and the downfall was proportionate. He had not

thought of desk-work--in fact, like the majority of young gentlemen, he

wanted an occupation which should be free from disagreeables. I cannot

tell what might have been the consequences if he had not distinctly

promised himself that he would go to Lowick to see Mary and tell her

that he was engaged to work under her father. He did not like to

disappoint himself there.

"I am very sorry," were all the words that he could muster. But Mr.

Garth was already relenting.

"We must make the best of it, Fred," he began, with a return to his

usual quiet tone. "Every man can learn to write. I taught myself. Go

at it with a will, and sit up at night if the day-time isn't enough.

We'll be patient, my boy. Callum shall go on with the books for a bit,

while you are learning. But now I must be off," said Caleb, rising.

"You must let your father know our agreement. You'll save me Callum's

salary, you know, when you can write; and I can afford to give you

eighty pounds for the first year, and more after."