I know that I shouldn't of kissed Jane but I couldn't help it. She looked so vulnerable all I wanted to do was comfort her. Her eyes were full of sadness all I want to do is make them shine again. I was so close in taking off my mask to make all her misery go away but she wouldn't remember it tomorrow if I did. I need her to be sober so I can explain everything to her. She thinks I died and to top it of she thinks I died in her arms. I thought I was suffering not knowing where she was but Jane is suffering double of what I was. "Did you find her?" Logan ask. He bumped into her earlier he was the one who told me she was looking for the roof. "Yeah I did," I answer. He looks over my shoulder and frowns "Where is she?". I run my hand through my hair "On the roof". I don't want to get into this right now. He tilts his head to the side "Why? Is she mad?" he ask confuse. If I'm going to get into this I need a drink first "She didn't know it was me" I say as I walk towards the bar. "Why the fuck not?" he throws his head back in frustration. "I need a drink" I inform him as I pass by.
I order a whiskey and told the bartender to keep them coming. "She thinks I'm dead" I enjoy the sting from the whiskey. "What?" he ask. "She thinks I died in her arms. She is so devastated" I drop my head into my hands. I never seen her so fragile. I'm used to her being a smart ass all the time. "Can you make it a double," Logan orders "and don't worry bro I'm sure once she finds out the truth everything will be fine". I hope he is right and everything goes back to normal. My poor Muffin all I want to do right now is go after her and never letting her go again. "She hasn't laugh in 2 months," I think that is what's killing me the most. Logan let's out a small whistle "2 months". I toss back my drink "And if that isn't bad enough she won't let no one touch her not even her family". As soon as the bartender brings my drink over I throw that one back too. "Damn bro," Logan pats my back "it will be over soon". I hope so because I can't see her like that again. It kills me to see how much pain she is in.