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"Just so: I think so: and you shall be answerable for it.

Criticise me: does my forehead not please you?"

He lifted up the sable waves of hair which lay horizontally over his

brow, and showed a solid enough mass of intellectual organs, but an

abrupt deficiency where the suave sign of benevolence should have

risen.

"Now, ma'am, am I a fool?"

"Far from it, sir. You would, perhaps, think me rude if I inquired

in return whether you are a philanthropist?"

"There again! Another stick of the penknife, when she pretended to

pat my head: and that is because I said I did not like the society

of children and old women (low be it spoken!). No, young lady, I am

not a general philanthropist; but I bear a conscience;" and he

pointed to the prominences which are said to indicate that faculty,

and which, fortunately for him, were sufficiently conspicuous;

giving, indeed, a marked breadth to the upper part of his head:

"and, besides, I once had a kind of rude tenderness of heart. When

I was as old as you, I was a feeling fellow enough, partial to the

unfledged, unfostered, and unlucky; but Fortune has knocked me about

since: she has even kneaded me with her knuckles, and now I flatter

myself I am hard and tough as an India-rubber ball; pervious,

though, through a chink or two still, and with one sentient point in

the middle of the lump. Yes: does that leave hope for me?"

"Hope of what, sir?"

"Of my final re-transformation from India-rubber back to flesh?"

"Decidedly he has had too much wine," I thought; and I did not know

what answer to make to his queer question: how could I tell whether

he was capable of being re-transformed?

"You looked very much puzzled, Miss Eyre; and though you are not

pretty any more than I am handsome, yet a puzzled air becomes you;

besides, it is convenient, for it keeps those searching eyes of

yours away from my physiognomy, and busies them with the worsted

flowers of the rug; so puzzle on. Young lady, I am disposed to be

gregarious and communicative to-night."

With this announcement he rose from his chair, and stood, leaning

his arm on the marble mantelpiece: in that attitude his shape was

seen plainly as well as his face; his unusual breadth of chest,

disproportionate almost to his length of limb. I am sure most

people would have thought him an ugly man; yet there was so much

unconscious pride in his port; so much ease in his demeanour; such a

look of complete indifference to his own external appearance; so

haughty a reliance on the power of other qualities, intrinsic or

adventitious, to atone for the lack of mere personal attractiveness,

that, in looking at him, one inevitably shared the indifference,

and, even in a blind, imperfect sense, put faith in the confidence.