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"I am disposed to be gregarious and communicative to-night," he

repeated, "and that is why I sent for you: the fire and the

chandelier were not sufficient company for me; nor would Pilot have

been, for none of these can talk. Adele is a degree better, but

still far below the mark; Mrs. Fairfax ditto; you, I am persuaded,

can suit me if you will: you puzzled me the first evening I invited

you down here. I have almost forgotten you since: other ideas have

driven yours from my head; but to-night I am resolved to be at ease;

to dismiss what importunes, and recall what pleases. It would

please me now to draw you out--to learn more of you--therefore

speak."

Instead of speaking, I smiled; and not a very complacent or

submissive smile either.

"Speak," he urged.

"What about, sir?"

"Whatever you like. I leave both the choice of subject and the

manner of treating it entirely to yourself."

Accordingly I sat and said nothing: "If he expects me to talk for

the mere sake of talking and showing off, he will find he has

addressed himself to the wrong person," I thought.

"You are dumb, Miss Eyre."

I was dumb still. He bent his head a little towards me, and with a

single hasty glance seemed to dive into my eyes.

"Stubborn?" he said, "and annoyed. Ah! it is consistent. I put my

request in an absurd, almost insolent form. Miss Eyre, I beg your

pardon. The fact is, once for all, I don't wish to treat you like

an inferior: that is" (correcting himself), "I claim only such

superiority as must result from twenty years' difference in age and

a century's advance in experience. This is legitimate, et j'y

tiens, as Adele would say; and it is by virtue of this superiority,

and this alone, that I desire you to have the goodness to talk to me

a little now, and divert my thoughts, which are galled with dwelling

on one point--cankering as a rusty nail."

He had deigned an explanation, almost an apology, and I did not feel

insensible to his condescension, and would not seem so.

"I am willing to amuse you, if I can, sir--quite willing; but I

cannot introduce a topic, because how do I know what will interest

you? Ask me questions, and I will do my best to answer them."

"Then, in the first place, do you agree with me that I have a right

to be a little masterful, abrupt, perhaps exacting, sometimes, on

the grounds I stated, namely, that I am old enough to be your

father, and that I have battled through a varied experience with

many men of many nations, and roamed over half the globe, while you

have lived quietly with one set of people in one house?"