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Presentiments are strange things! and so are sympathies; and so are

signs; and the three combined make one mystery to which humanity has

not yet found the key. I never laughed at presentiments in my life,

because I have had strange ones of my own. Sympathies, I believe,

exist (for instance, between far-distant, long-absent, wholly

estranged relatives asserting, notwithstanding their alienation, the

unity of the source to which each traces his origin) whose workings

baffle mortal comprehension. And signs, for aught we know, may be

but the sympathies of Nature with man.

When I was a little girl, only six years old, I one night heard

Bessie Leaven say to Martha Abbot that she had been dreaming about a

little child; and that to dream of children was a sure sign of

trouble, either to one's self or one's kin. The saying might have

worn out of my memory, had not a circumstance immediately followed

which served indelibly to fix it there. The next day Bessie was

sent for home to the deathbed of her little sister.

Of late I had often recalled this saying and this incident; for

during the past week scarcely a night had gone over my couch that

had not brought with it a dream of an infant, which I sometimes

hushed in my arms, sometimes dandled on my knee, sometimes watched

playing with daisies on a lawn, or again, dabbling its hands in

running water. It was a wailing child this night, and a laughing

one the next: now it nestled close to me, and now it ran from me;

but whatever mood the apparition evinced, whatever aspect it wore,

it failed not for seven successive nights to meet me the moment I

entered the land of slumber.

I did not like this iteration of one idea--this strange recurrence

of one image, and I grew nervous as bedtime approached and the hour

of the vision drew near. It was from companionship with this baby-

phantom I had been roused on that moonlight night when I heard the

cry; and it was on the afternoon of the day following I was summoned

downstairs by a message that some one wanted me in Mrs. Fairfax's

room. On repairing thither, I found a man waiting for me, having

the appearance of a gentleman's servant: he was dressed in deep

mourning, and the hat he held in his hand was surrounded with a

crape band.

"I daresay you hardly remember me, Miss," he said, rising as I

entered; "but my name is Leaven: I lived coachman with Mrs. Reed

when you were at Gateshead, eight or nine years since, and I live

there still."